First Aerial Yoga Experience

Today, there was celebration of Depavali at AP2. Proudly to say that I won the top 10 best Deepavali theme for 2026.

I won myself a thermos with Dell printing on it. Well done.

I didnt expect this though I did put in some effort to squeeze out this idea. 

Besides, I had applied half day leave with my another 2 partners in crime to join Aerial Yoga.

I had great time trying the basic postures. 

All the movements seemed so gentle but I could say that I felt my arms muscle were brutally strained.

My hands were trembled in exhaustion but I persisted and I did it!

My friend was truly a motivator, she swifted in the air so effortlessly.

And SURE because of this. I die die also want to accomplish the posture. 😂

It was so fun that I was a bit reluctant to leave.

Maybe I should get another session next time but.. I need to clear my pilate lessons in prior 🥲

I can feel my body is different now when it starts to aged. Especially the metabolism rate and the stamina. However, I found myself so in love with dancing. Even I had lesson during my 18th, I only found my passion now. I have been dance for over one year. I really love the class. Finally, it is a happy post. 😊

33 Years Old: I am not being anyone I wanted to be except being a mother of three

I knew he thought it was just a usual lame joke.

Indeed, it was. 

But it still burns in my mind

He knew what I was anticipating all these years

I knew he had his promise

I knew my wish wasn't going to fulfill fully based on what I meant for

He said he already accomplished my anticipation

But deep in my heart, I kept silence

I am very happy that he tried to overcome his fear just to satisfy my ask.

But why am I not feeling overjoyed ?

I knew he always tried his best to make me happy

He is a great husband yet a great father

I can't do what he did for me

Why I am feeling all these numbness to surrounding?

It is quite uneasy to find myself not feeling happy. ALWAYS. 

No one did me wrong

Am I mentally or psychologically having any difficulties? 

What happened to me?

I feel suffocated I feel lonely

I feel weird

I am feeling myself too strange

People want to help

I can't understand my need

I know my family loves me

I know they need me

But I don't even feel I need anyone

I feel bad always for nothing.

I am tired to feel.

Why?

It has been too long

Why am I struggling?

For what?

I feel comfortable to not to feel anyone's feeling

But I feel bad to have this thought.

I know it doesn't matter. 

It is fine to be easy.

I never want to admit that I am selfish but yes, I know I can't be selflessness. 

Great. Accept who I am. It is okay. 

It is okay. Mind my mind before others. 

💪

缺片的灵魂

她

很彷徨

她

很幸运

她

不快乐

她

到底藏在了哪里

我

找不到

她

是否已经消失

她

已经不在乎

我

到底还需要她吗

她

没有灵魂

她

没有感情

她

不再相信任何人

没有人辜负她

她

却不知怎么了

不痛不痒

她

流泪了

她

却不知道这意味着什么

我

却懒得挽留他

甚至已忘了

她是什么样子

没有她的我

可悲

可怜

可恶

可笑

呵呵