anger in head

having some conflicts with my bff. i felt angry and sad. however, it was my attitude problem. i did not want to argue or say anything else. i prefer to maintaim silent. i am still in temper so i do not think it is a good time to express what is in my mind. people is liking your status, it makes me feel that it is uselesa for me to speak pf anything. People love you, nnot like me, always become indifferent. what i spoke became wrong. everytime in fromt of others. i felt small and discrete. sometimes i just hope that im born mute. so i wont say things wrong. im stubborn, i should learn to pick up critism.