爸爸

What can a dad do for his children? 

I dont know how about the other dad, i know mine.

Honestly, i dont treat good to my dad in tone. I speak loud and even shouted to him when he is asking for a cellphone operation. Everything he does for me i take for granted. I never buy him a breakfast like he always does. I always request other to love their parents, but what do i do for my parents? I look down on them, speak rude and make troubles to them.

So these are how my dad replies to my action:

Asking  me to choose a breakfast everyday. Speak soft to me. Quietly give me pocket money and help me to fill petrol ever since i want to hang out by my house vehicles. Im always pampered by his care and attention. The most great thing he did to me is he never blame me directly whenever i did a big mistake. Firstly, he would calm me down to be afraid that i could be panic when the incident happened. Then he will help to settle the things for me, trying his best, never sharing his fears to me. He will just give a simple advice and will never take this incident as a weapon to blame me in future. He protects me and his act is making me selfish and egoism. 

Today, a bad case happened, it actually could be avoided if i were careful enough or taking responsibility as a good daughter. Always inform my parents on what im doing. I remembered what 吳鎮宇said to his son: "受傷了記得回家" i live my 22years life and now i realise how important to back home and inform parents when something happen. 

The last sentence: sorry daddy, thank you so much.

有点小悲伤

虽然知道你对我用情并不深，但是你的回应的确让我有小难过。曾经等我回复的你，不再找我。就算给你的生日祝福，你也默默地说了谢谢就沉默了。原来我给你的伤害是如此。只能说，我没成为一个该被珍惜的女孩。默默地为你祝福，也祝福我自己。谢谢你的付出和帮忙，很感恩，我也不会再那么自以为是了。你让我学习很多。加油呀！素媚

:)

Im not the only kind

It seems awkward to write it here but i just couldn't withold myself from doing it. Yeah. I was kind of too bored and went to read the blog of the FOB of my friend. As an overview, all of her blog posts is truly problematic. Complains, selfcentered and full with repention. It sounds so familiar with me. Yes. It was me. The one who used to tell my sorrow and resentful stories to the world. Especially using blogs. I see myself from her. The one who doesnt look at the bright side on her own and blaming the world for not treatenning us righful enough. It is a process to grow up. 

I hope that one day she can feel instead of the world is breaking her heart but to be contented on what she chose to be. She said she was not interested to continue on what she was studying right now. She had the chance to make a difference to her choice, but she only blamed her luck neither making a new decision nor changing her attitude. Life is hard to proceed if she continues to live like this. She is having acknowledgement of financial independence now like how i am facing too. Eagerly to show something to our family to prove that we are not that little anymore. Away from being bias towards her from what i heard from others. I see her being too pessimistic living in the world from her views. Stop caring other people's critism on us. Even she keeps saying being herself but she doesn't look happy at all. If she is not happy, that is not the point to be herself. Just all the best to you. 

Lastly, please never ever think to replace a man you loved so much with a man who loved you so much. It would end up hurting the man who loved you and breaking your heart knowing that the man you loved doesn't care at all. End of sharing. Try to digest my points of view too, sorry for taking your story. I just want to warn myself not to back to those time anymore.