Tuesday, January 21, 2014

素媚,你在做什么?

         “素媚,你在做什么?”基本上,这句话只会被两种人套用。第一种,是真的想知道我在做什么,而另一种则是用在责问我的语气。当然,后者的使用率居多。“素媚,你又再做麽了?”最近的我迷糊得很,最严重的一次是前天我驾车忘了打方向灯,导致随后的摩托车差点翻覆。除此之外,也试过多算顾客百多令吉,离谱的是,事情是在一个星期后,才由我的上司发现。这可能是因为我太累还是快衰老了吗?我不能断定,只能想办法亡羊补牢。就算于事无补,也至少能让自己的罪恶感减低。
         话说回第一种问候,我就老实点承认最近的自己有一点桃花。,不多,就少许。起因是因为在家闲着没事就给自己拍了好几张高角度大头照,然后上载到面子书。原本宽阔的下颚变得跟美人儿一样(夸张修辞),此时网上就出现了好几个“陌生”朋友的关心。常常慰问近况,不然就是想约我见面。当然,我还不至于那么随便,我也知道我不可以在网上骗“单纯”的网友们,所以就婉转的拒绝了。当然,故事写到这,你必然觉得我本人有一点自恋,一点发骚,异常地好上钩。如果,真的自爱,坚定,就直接好了嘛,还婉转个什?唉,寂寞的单身女人,不这样找乐子,哪儿来的有趣呢?呵呵~放心,我会适可而止,不会太天真,太傻。只是偶尔会渴望有一个真心关心我的男人,为我买早餐。当然,条件是,必须是我心仪的男士,这样才能办到让我尝到幸福的味道。但回头想想,自己对人的用心和关怀都很少,要人家对我特好,那可是难事一桩。我不强求了,事情看开了,无论做什么事,都会很开心。
         我这三年来最值得让我自豪的是我学会给自己打气。这让我遇到难过的事都可以很容易再站起来。当我要生朋友的气的时候,我能做到忍让和放下。我很开心,因为我能接受责骂。所以,当你在问起我在做到什么的时候,我会告诉自己我在做着更好的自己。面对大家,我不需要怕,因为就算被你骂,我也会学习到其中的精华。谢谢我所有的过路人,我感恩。能接受自己的不完美,是你们教我的,学着改变也是你们的帮助。但愿,你们幸福快乐平安。 J

Thursday, January 2, 2014

To him

I know you try your best to stay beside me when I'm emotionally down. Frankly, I am reluctant to waste your effort, you are a good man, but I'm not ready to have you. Perhaps, it has been something important that is missing between us. I tried to let you to get in my world, but then I realise we will never be in the same world. I want to let you know but I don't know how to get it started. Don't treat me good, I feel sorry for you, but being friend with you is a great thing in my life. Hmm.. just give me some time to tell you.

consequences of procrastination

Today was the second subject for my first year first semester. Analytical Chemistry. It was known to be the killer subject, regarding to our seniors. Since the last subject, which was Calculus, i felt like to bang my head on wall and roll my body down the hill. (just to release my frustration ) Everyone seemed to grade the final exam as easy as drinking water. However I got stuck in doing the exam. I was beaten. Today, this exam wasn't an easy one, for sure I couldn't excel as to relate to my title. I gave up on my paper 2 and I might not get above 25 per 50. How was I going to pass this paper? I wondered. Since the day I stepped on USM, I was getting stressed. In every test that was going on in USM, I would be nervous, and sometimes, I even couldn't sleep. Even the assignment was not an easy task. For me, these were not the bad part, the bad thing was there wasn't bell-shaped examination grading. There might be possibility to fail if I did not do well in final. I thought I was that kind of brilliant person, indeed, i was so discrete like a sand among my coursemates. My result was nothing if to compare with their flying colour results. I knew results were not a guideline to decide one's success anymore, but I did not discover my advantageous field besides of studying. What should I do to improve myself? I'm currently phobia to go for examination. It had became a nightmare. And yet, I was procrastinating my time on blogging. I should prepare for my next subject, gambatae neh~~~

You are still my best listener~~~~ :) energy boost up!!