A new update after more than a year.
Welcome my boy to our family~
It is my third child as a mom, hopefully no more addition (Haha)
I can’t tell that it is an easy process, but indeed it is more blessed process compared to my two elder kids.
I had smooth deliveries, great benefits from company, even valuable advice from my manager on breastfeeding, conducive confinement centre, no fussy work.
However, there were bad days after my confinement.
We were burgled just after a week from my return. It caused me depressed and trauma fearing that someone could hurt us. Our home is no longer a safe place. I even thought of let’s sell it and move to safer house😅 To fix our worries, we repaired and added few more expensive padlocks, installed alarm system and CCTVs. All our savings burnt out for all these unexpected incidents. Not to mentioned the jewelleries that lost during the burglary. (I am so shattered with the lost of the gold pendant from my MIL and the gold necklace given by my mom to my husband)
After all the installation work done, I was fully exhausted to clean up the mess and make sure they are properly maintain for my kids to stay. I can feel my body tear up but yay mom’s strength does exist. I endured the tiredness. Especially there was newborn in house, I could not have a night of good sleep. Luckily, I am truly grateful that maternity leave saves my life. When everything finally up to track, we decided for a short escape where we would have a staycation at Hompthon Hotel.
It was a great fun, for my kids😂 not for adult. My husband was expecting for a horny night but in fact we were just weary.
Not to we knew that, there was a beginning of another dead tired incident. My daughter caught in fever just after we checked out from hotel. Soon, we did notice a temperature kick on my little newborn. We thought they just having normal cold, so I myself brought both of them to kids clinic on the next day. Unfortunately, it wasn’t a normal flu, it is influenza A. (Crying inside my mind). Bringing them home, quarantined them from my husband and kids. I took care of them alone. The bad thing was I did not truly aware of myself and I was infected the next day. The body ache was real and so did the fever. I was thankful that I went thru the days where I had to feed, bath, calm the kids with all the uncomfortable condition. That was the time where I started to grumble to my husband, why I had to bear so much on myself. (The truth is marriage quarrel is inevitable, you may hear the harshest word or the cold tone) I had to think back those greatness so I won’t continue to blame because I know we were all overtired.
If you were to ask me whether to get marry again if I can choose again, it would be definitely yes to the same man. I have no regret to born 3kids with him although I may have spent money on travel without hassle (kids). It is so much love in return from my kids when they learn to express their feelings. One of the day while quarantining in my kid’s room, my daughter would listen to my command and did best not to cause trouble to me as she knew mommy was tired. She would give me greatest hugs and smile whenever I needed.
I love my kids so much, I can’t even look at or just merely think of any bad things happen on my kids, no matter how old they are. I wish my kids would always be safe, healthy and live in blessings. Every time when they’re sick, I would check their breathing in the midnight just to ensure they still breathing 😂mom is stress. I am not going to read my blog and I do not hope any of them read of these. Im just contented that I still have a good place to share my story and feelings.
愿世界和平,大家健康平安欢喜
