Wednesday, November 17, 2010

what if?

that day,
the day i questioned you.
thanks for not letting me go.
i do miss you, my darling.
thanks for the call and i mean it..
the moment after i sent out the message.
i wondered, how would i feel if i meet you again?
shall i deleted this blog site to make you released?
and i was so unwanted to do so.
what if you gone?
i would be a dumb who won speak as much as i could.
i would shut off my phone for the coming 2months.
and i would be lost every time i emo again.
maybe, our relationship has faded a lot.
but you appreciated me.
the moment you called, i just felt like oh thanks, at least you cared.
when you talked and tried to cheer me up, i was like well-embraced by your arms.
thanks god for giving you to walk cross my life..
and..
i'm waiting for your cute and gorgeous recent photossssss....^^!
haha..
take care.

sincerely from
precious

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

156days

i had been a form6 student for 156days..
finally, i succeeded to make myself suit to my study environment..
i stopped myself from digging bigger hole for my grave..
don worry.. i would be fine as all i would..
concentrate on your studies and socialisation among your friend..
i promised..
i would not bring any childish case for you anymore..
i would stand stiff on my own..

yesterday..
i was so unhappy..
because someone made me insaned..
i thought you would comfort me..
but you shown me that..
it doesn't really big deal and i was so immatured..
felt hurt a bit..
so i wrote a letter for you..
all my sadness and feelings are written on paper..
no one knows except me..
then i tore them into pieces..
it was a way to release my tension..
at least..
i felt i was 'shared' with you..
it seemed dumb.. haha..
but effective..
i thought of why you neglected my needs..
i saw a post from facebook..
'如果我的回复只是‘噢’和一些简单的回答,请原谅我,我只是不同意你的想法,不愿惹气更多的不悦。。’
i was not sure of what you went through yesterday..
but i guessed you felt me immatured and i should have ability to pacified myself..
and yes i did..
or maybe you were busy, or you were in moody too..
anything..
but it did not important anymore..
i would conceal and control my emotion..
i should face my problems myself..
i would grown up.. just gave me some time..
occasionally, i would blame you..
but think wisely.. i was the faulty..
haha..
so jia you!!
saw mey don emo!!

Sunday, October 3, 2010

i wanted to share

i want to tell you that..
my average cocurriculum got 80.5marks..
i was so happy..
i wanted to share with you the most..
although you got higher marks then mine during your secondary,
i felt wanted to share with you..
actually..
occasionally, i would take offense when you leave comments for others..
i was not the one you felt wanted to share of your life..
eventhough you were not purposely.. i felt miserable..
in facebook..
i seems like never connected to you..
you used to it..
sometimes,
i envied some couples..
whenever they posted somethings..
they'll soothe each other on time..
basically.. you hated to do so..
i was not the type of girl you expected to be in love..
i was not pretty..
not sweet,
blunt to take initiative..
fat..
not friendly..
vulnerable..
a non-christian..
a coward..
weird styling.. no personality..
not confidented..
strong jealousy..
under-performing academic, relationship, and physical condition..
not attractive, pessimism..
not romantic girl.............................
nothing branded good on me...
i knew..
you cant find a virtue on me..
but you were 99% opposite of me..
inferiory flooded every cell of mine..
i hoped i could do something..
for myself.. to make my family and you proud..
sorry~

well.. i'm jealous..

nothing special for me to jealous some1..
ya..
i'm still influenced by the position..
i knew time would faded our connection..
it ate our mutual dependence..
it had been once i felt i was on the top of mountain..
but i knew..
i had no longer be that one..
i was not a generous person..
i was a miser..
horrible type..
what i appreciate now was.. your cares toward me..
i did not know how long we would continue,
but i won't give up as i still love you..
and i would learn not to depend so much on you..
its time for your removal of burden(me)

Monday, September 27, 2010

it was dreadful to wait for your return

sometimes..
i missed you a lot..
when the air was cool
when i slept alone
when my phone stop rang.
i felt emptied.
i don't use to make a call for you..
i just waiting you to miss me..
it was full of joy to receive call from you..
no matter how hard i tried to conceal my happiness,
i could not put off my smile on my face..
i pretended as normal,
but you knew, it meant a lot to me..
i knew you would not visit this site as frequent..
i hope you'll know..
i miss you till hell and heaven..
cant wait for your return..
if life can be remote by a device..
i would press backward and pause on the day you kiss me in your house.
we got nothing severe to worry..
we just have each other in eyes..
i miss that moment..
but time dont flow back..
i hope,
de day you hug me again,
will be soon~

Thursday, September 2, 2010

yeah~

it's today..
my 2a exam is over..
but my nightmare will start soon after holiday break....
wish you good luck in exam ya~~

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

today is the 114th day of form6 life.

miss you so much
miss the day i was on your bike
hugging you... sweet..
i still remembered the day after spm add maths exam.
you brought to shout out on the road.
i miss the day you still beside me.
i was afraid that i'll forgot any of you.
a little black spot on your lips.
shining eyes and the song you sang for me.
it is long to let me wait for your return.
pay hard on study..
both you and me..
good luck^^

i'll write down every single piece of misses at here

i write it here.........................

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

27/06/10 1603

我爱你,你听见了吗?。。。加油 >.<

07/06/10 2018

whole day do wat har? din receive ur msg feel abnormal...

26/5/10 1822

hana crazy liao... crazy of u liao!... grh... 1 kiss u liao! muack!

24/5/10 2019

1 to text u msg, but don knw text wat. so, love u n miss u la. going to take dinner, don reply me ha, abo u will need to wait my msg...haha.

22-5-10 2148

sms u need reason eh meh ? if yes, then ma i miss u lo...

05-05-10 0303

really cant sleep well when u din bother about me... maybe that is how u feel when i'm busy n let u stay alone... felt my heart pain...

blushing reply 25/4/2010 00:02

only knw how to eat ur saliva...
now i only got saw mey precious nia...

24/4/2010 23:45

the reason i still alive is because i stole ur heart too. n replace it with the heart u stole from me... haha... muack!

24/4/2010 14:15

i shouldn't made u fall in love with me since i decided not to stay in penang in future. sorry sorry sorry... i shouldn't give u hope n then take it away... loving u is a mistake. but i still love u. this is a beautiful mistake 4 me...

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

知道了他要做的选择。。

是开心吗?
还是有点点不甘。。
我都不想再考虑了。。
因为,
他不再是我该懊恼的对象了。。
不是吗?
催眠自己:是!是!是!
笨蛋~

今天,大概六点左右。。
被强烈的余震惊醒。。
也许是我家建筑不佳吧。。
只有我家那东楼摇晃。。
它摇了很久很旧。。
觉得很不安。。
发现。。
我很怕死。。
因该是。。
我还不想死的意思吧。。
我还有很多很多的事没做。。
还没有真正听到。。
他要甩我。。
今天,他回来了。。
但我想,
他应该不会找我了。。
他很累了吧?
我想打赌。。
赌注不说明了。。
反正你们不削知道。。
输掉的话,
今晚11:59pm我就把一切信息删掉。。
把摸得到的回忆锁进柜子里。。
不再冀望。。
看缘分吧。。
不过我想我们没有。。
等等吧。。
今天后,
我可能就放生了。。

好朋友

你相信有永远的好朋友吗?
如果,
同样 的。。
你跟我一样。。
开始恋爱了。。
你还会把好友放在第一吗?
如果是,
这表示。。你不是爱而是喜欢。。
当 你沉溺在爱河时。。
就会开始忽略身边的一切。。
而当你失去那一个‘唯一’时。。
你就会发现。。
当你失去爱情的同时,
友 情也遥不可及了。。
所以,
真正寂寞才开始。。
本来,
可以分享心事的好友。。
也可能无剩了。。

谈 着恋爱的朋友们。。
不要失去了才后悔。。
两 个人不可太两人。。
不然,
一个人的时候,
回身,
你不会再看见愿半夜安慰你别哭的朋友了。。
我是很幸运的了。。
因 为,
我做了许多遗忘朋友的事,
但,
他们仍在我难过时给我关怀。。
好朋友,
也许不是一辈子的。。
但珍惜却是一辈子的。。



谢谢你。。
朋友。。

Monday, April 5, 2010

也许。。

也许我适应得来。。
发现,
没有你的这两天。。
我过得很好。。
会怀念,但不会太偏激。。
是好事。。
一个人本来就是一个人。。
脱离两人,
一个人还是有办法很好。。
不会再担心没有你的日子。。
我会怎样怎样。。
你离开,
是上天给我的小小考验。。
我会处理好的。。
为生活冲刺吧!!^^

Friday, April 2, 2010

寂寞的一个小时


本来,
今天,
我们约好九点到青年公园。。
哪儿知。。
他睡过头了。。
我还痴痴地等。。
差不多9:22才打给他。。
问。。
‘你睡醒了吗?’
‘做么事?’
‘。。。呃。。不是九点吗?’差点落泪了。。
‘什么?oh shit..我忘记了’
很失望,
被不记得的约定。。
我又闹脾气了。。
我说:
‘不用紧了,不要来了。。不要去了。。’
我坐在楼下的石椅哭泣。。
觉得尴尬又忍不住。。
抱着书包一个人哭。。
有些旁人看见了又不敢问。。
觉得凄凉又寂寞。。
哭了十分钟。。
我擦擦泪。。
到happy mart买下两份报子。。
上我的秘密基地冷静自己。。
想找住近的朋友。。
没空。。
便自己寂寞。。
继续哭、继续悲观。。
想着有的没的。。
你给我的承诺,
我还很怀疑你真的还不起。。
你结果还是来了。。
我说,很凶很认真的说:
‘不要找我!!’
过了许久。。
我才发简讯赴约。。
我真的很气又很伤心。。
而你却以为我闹脾气的原因是你会离开。。
但最后,还是以欢乐收场。。
发现,
情人的话听听,
收着就好。。
不要太信或太期待。。
因为意外常在。。
失望是寂寞难受的。。
这寂寞的一小时。。
很难受。。
这辈子忘不了这一种寂寞。。

Monday, March 29, 2010

tmr.. is de day to knw..

wat wil happen nex..
let de fate make de choice..
i m exhausted..
pls..
it gonna over..
all would b a past tense..
say bye bye~
goodbye will oni hurt when u noe u'll never say hello again..

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

feel differ..




















feel differ now when cthrough his eyes..
dunno to describe hw..
jus v comfortable..
kissed today..
felt confirmed..
bein appreciate n loved by some1..
jus few seconds..
but it made a perfect memory..
taste sweet & undescribe..
我的吻~
是湿湿的。。
软软的。。
不持久的(因为新手)
没有味道的。。(因为知觉僵硬了)
心里暖暖的。。
会很想念的。。
tis is wat i feel..
hope tis feel we won 4get 4ever..
我们牵过手、拥抱过、吻过。。
好多好多的曾经。。
忘不了~
真的很奇妙的。。
像是热恋中的男女。。
上对方的家。。
看电视。。
很舒服。。
太舒服了。。
想起了。。
就是同居的感觉。。
写不下去了。。
end~

Monday, March 22, 2010

dunno hw to express my feeling..

sad n miss..
he haven go..
i tiok like tis liao..
hw??
haiz..
we had our 1st kiss at 22nd of mac 2010..
day never 4gotten~
love u..

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

ストを見てはいけません。 。

あなたが本当に理解していない機器を理解していないのですか?
私は、現在の状況を実際にしないように。 。
私は、その気性を失う午前
することもできますトラブル。 。
場合は、ガスを聞いたことがある私は、と述べた。 。
それはもはや操作です。 。
お疲れ?
ですよね?
私が実際に保持されているのを好む。 。
は行くことをしない。 。
しかし、私は過酷な選択をしています。 。
申し訳ありませんが、私は今、非常に特定のサブ問題について心配していた。 。
あなたは、気にしない
考えさせて
ばかな。 。
あなたが私のブログを読んでいないと言う。 。
私は実際に彼は長くなることを期待する。 。
これは書かれています。 。
必ずしも真実ではない話です。 。
私はそれは理解に苦しむ。 。
私のトラブルです。 。
あなたが怒るのはない。 。
私がそれを価値がないです。 。
anata ga hontōni rikai shi te i nai kiki wo rikai shi te i nai no desu ka ? watashi wa , genzai no jōkyō wo jissai ni shi nai yō ni . 。 watashi wa , sono kishō wo ushinau gozen suru koto mo deki masu toraburu . 。 baai wa , gasu wo kii ta koto ga aru watashi wa , to nobe ta . 。 sore wa mohaya sōsa desu . 。 o tsukare ? desu yo ne ? watashi ga jissai ni hoji sa re te iru no wo konomu . 。 wa iku koto wo shi nai . 。 shikashi , watashi wa kakoku na sentaku wo shi te i masu . 。 mōshiwake ari mase n ga , watashi wa ima , hijō ni tokutei no sabu mondai nitsuite shinpai shi te i ta . 。 anata wa , ki ni shi nai kangae sase te ba ka na . 。 anata ga watashi no buroguwo yon de i nai to iu . 。 watashi wa jissai ni kare wa nagaku naru koto wo kitai suru . 。 kore wa kaka re te i masu . 。 kanarazushimo shinjitsu de wa nai hanashi desu . 。 watashi wa sore wa rikai ni kurushimu . 。 watashi no toraburu desu . 。 anata ga okoru no wa nai . 。 watashi ga sore wo kachi ga nai desu . 。

我怎么了?

我很偏激吧?
不开心的时候。。
一定会把身边的人弄得更不开心。。
老实说,
是发自内心控制不住的故意。。
深奥吧?
算了。。
以后,
不想被人看到的内容。。
我会统统用外语写。。
咳。。
算了吧。。
没有人能真正懂得一个人。。
包括自己。。
失望。。
继续失望吧。。

Sunday, March 14, 2010

理解していないか〜

残念な結果です。 。
希望がないことになります〜
この時間を許してね。 。

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

现在

多希望有人能陪在我身边。。
默默地,
就听我哭泣。。
世界末日好像到来了。。

我又傻了

为了自己的堕落。。
我受到了惩罚。。
很简单。。
就是失败与绝望。。
顿时间,
我觉得,
我一次过失去了一切。。
无奈。。
无论是友情、爱情、或成绩。。
我都愧对自己。。
流过泪。。
就得流得有尊严。。
我不想,
明明难过。。
还要应酬那一大堆欢喜的。。
我不开心,他们也会因我遭殃。。
朋友,
请,看不起我吧!
因为我找不到理由原谅自己。。
赫赫~
没人可怜。。
好寂寞。。
一个人好可怕。。
只有哥哥为我打气。。
也许,
卿说得对。。
能守护我们的。。
不是爱人,不是朋友。。
是家人。。
全世界请讨厌我吧!
我的悲泣谁能懂?
朋友有朋友办不到的事。。
爱人有不爱我的自由。。
我有我说不出的泪水。。
感觉,
我被世界遗弃了~
就我一个人。。。。。。。。。。
原本珍惜我的人,
不要我了。。。
身边的朋友,
已不再在乎对方的感受。。
割透了。。
我的心。。
我不想计较。。
因为,
你们都仍是我的纯纯之友。。
永远不改变。。
我爱的人也嫌我烦嫌我闷了。。
复杂掩埋了我~
呜呜~~
好久没对着镜子流泪了。。
没人在乎我,
只好,
学习看着、安慰着镜里懦弱的自己。。

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

放下

也许,真的是太爱了。。
会累。。
累过头了,
会麻痹。。
什么感觉都消退。。
现在,
我不懂哭了。。
也许是那天的眼泪洗尽了我的执著。。
明白,
一直以来,
我是多么的幼稚。。
如今,
我对某些事不再那么相信。。
但我愿选择,
当个鸵鸟。。
开心就好。。
我不怨时间少。。
因为福气的事不是计较长短的。。
有过就好。。
平凡。。
是我的追求。。
现在的我能很肯定,
失去时我能放得下。。
因为我明白了我的渺小。。
同时是你的自信打击了我。。
也点醒了我。。
现在我站起来了。。
原来。。就这么简单~

与青春有关的日子(摘自)

我们浪费掉了太多的青春,

那是一段如此自以为是、又如此狼狈不堪的青春岁月,

有欢笑,也有泪水;有朝气,也有颓废;

有甜蜜,也有荒唐;有自信,也有迷茫。
我们敏感,我们偏执,我们顽固到底地故作坚强;

我们轻易的伤害别人,也轻易的被别人所伤,

我们追逐于颓废的快乐,陶醉于寂寞的美丽;

我们坚信自己与众不同,坚信世界会因为我而改变;

我们觉醒其实我们已经不再年轻,

我们前途或许也不再是无限的,

其实它又何曾是无限的?
曾经在某一瞬间,我们都以为自己长大了。

但是有一天,我们终于发现,长大的含义除了欲望,

还有勇气、责任、坚强以及某种必须的牺牲。

在生活面前我们还都是孩子,
其实我们从未长大,还不懂爱和被爱。

Friday, March 5, 2010

all about me..

突然的转变,
我。。有太多不该有的时间。。
该怎么安排呢?
没时间烦,有时间更烦。。
正如没钱烦,有钱更烦。。
人就是那么爱自寻麻烦。。

要找工吗?
我想做一天4小时那种的。。
可是好像不怎么有哦。。
咳。。
闷。。。
是命运安排吧!
遵守好了。。
会有想不出的意外~
hehe..
想多了吧??
也许,
这期间,
我会有时间跟朋友相处吧!!
赫赫。。
不会重色轻友了。。
单身嘛!!
要多点记录死党回忆。。
不错哦!!
所以别再讽刺我咯^^
爱你们!!
friends Pictures, Images and Photos

Thursday, March 4, 2010

痛痛的决定

现在是最佳的时机。。
冷静期。。。
有太多你不想而我很想的事。。
你不在乎。。
有时真的是我太不会向你表达。。
所以,
我才会一直难过。。
[自讨苦吃]
电话没钱了。。
密码换了[不管fb还是blog]
把你从我的fb的friends删掉了。。
把blog锁起给其他人看就偏偏少了你。。
失去联系。。
你会紧张吗?
会生气吗?
我觉得你无所谓。。
是我不了解你吗?
还是我很自私?
watever~
算了。。。
赫赫。。
用这种方式来伤害自己。。
够笨吧!
也许我真的很小气。。
但只是因为,
你不知道我的在乎。。
当你女朋友真的那么难吗?
有那么不可告人吗?
像二奶的生活一样。。
明明有路,天下周知。。
但却盖天盖地,怕墙角有人。。
我很差吧?
才会让你如此。。
是我的错。。
全都是。。
因为我很差劲!!

始终。。

我还是那一个。。
不被承认的人。。
失望。。
早已习惯。。
决定,
让你看不见。。
最后一段日子。。
狗屁的我。。
做了。。
但不知你几时才发现。。
但我可猜测。。
你不会知道。。
这就是我们的距离。。

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

announcement..

since.. 2/3/2010..
i'm not single anymore..
'letitia mey is in a relationship'..
date..
til de day we separate..
thank you~

1st time









hear ppl say tat ns list wan come out d..
v nervous..
oh my gosh!!
i dun wan kena 2nd batch..
i rather died of boringness at home den go there..
shit!!
wei..
haiz..
n yer..
i wan watch de alice in wonderland..
haha..
unwaited..
lol..
yesterday 1st time wear de jia jie mao..
i wonder y so much girls wil wake up so early to make up??
i rather sleep at home..
but not bad 4 1st try.. hehe..

Monday, March 1, 2010

猪头

美梦是追寻的起源。。
但美梦也是痛苦的起点。。
金钱是美梦。。
爱情是美梦。。
梦想成真也是美梦。。
但。。
一个人,不可拥有太多美梦。。
因为当他知道,
追寻会破灭时。。
就可能。。
很悲。。
我,
美梦成真了。。
但破灭时。。
我还能撑吗?
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The love that lasts the longest is the love that is never returned

answer

faster let me noe de ans..
i dun wan kept waiting 4 empty..
i dun wan keep givin hope to myself..
hate..
faster come to de end..
i wan to learn hw to settle de problem fast..
alone..
better..
won emo..
never hoping 4 never again..
well..
keep far from me..
u did gud..

Saturday, February 27, 2010

new hp..

w595..
mayb..
u all wil thk y i choose tis wan..
but i like it..
although no wifi..
but it contains all de devices tat i wana..
n de price good..
as my bro recognise de hp seller..
rm540
plus de charger, handfree,usb, 2G memory card..
n 4oo++ songs install 4 me..
n 27 funny videos..
many available themes..
n some cute disney n pooh's picture..
it worth so much..
n i really happy tat i had work at de factory..
coz..
happy to hear tat wil miss me..
n ask me hang out..
haha..
noe new frens..
care of when i in camp..
haha..
at there i also gt 3ppl gang..
sypok..
n i gt chance to shoot those flirty guys..
yeah!!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

my dad..





















erm..
i never seriously blog abt my daddy..
at home..
i always cal my dad 'papi'..
it sounds like 'puppy'..
haha..
but tis is our family culture..
laz laz nite..
i had a pillow talk wif my sista..
a lot of thgs to chat abt..
n 1 is my dad..
i never noe tat..
my sis v hate of my dad when she was small..
coz he always complain to my mom when my sis did wrong when she small..
n my mom cane my sis..
n my dad sis n shake leg c her..
lol..
pity lo..
i never noe tat..
but when she start to attend de dharma class held at de gu leng hoot..
she started to relieve her angerness towards my dad..
she had hate my dad 4 almost 10++ yrs..
incredible..
mayb buddha's teaching was generous enough..
hope i got chance to join n change my bad tempered towards my mom..
my dad did tat to my sis..
but i never noe...
she said..
it happen many times d..
mayb i'm still stupid tat time gua..
haha..
but in my memory..
my dad v sayang me de..
even my sis admit tat my dad sayang me de most among we 3..
maybe i'm de youngest gua..
i stil rmb..
when i'm in kindergarden..
i was sent to day care early in morning..
he woke me up evryday..
n i din even nid to open eyes..
he tiok put de 'nen nen' into my mouth n let me suck..
den he change my cloth n put powder on me..
he talked to me..
n took me go out wait de daycare ppl come fetch..
i dun nid to open eyes throughout de process..
n tat time i adi 4-5yrs old liao..
waliao..
think now oso feel tat my dad v 'seng'me..
n when i came bac..
i play wif my cousins nex door..
n he got bac home on 5pm somthg..
den i'll shout loudly to beg him buy sugus 4 me..
n he always bought 4 me..
my sis said..
my dad always fulfilled wat i wan..
hehe..
mayb.. she was rite..
haha..
n evrytime hang out..
he will put me on his shoulder..
n shake..
i almost 4goten tat..
he v nice to me..
n when i was in pri sch..
he always go sch check my hmwk..
n wil sent de 4gotten exe book from house to sch..
but my sis never get tat offer..
haha..
n my sis always pay her sch fees using her own savings..
but i jus show my pals to my dad n take money..
suddenly think of so much..
den..
when i start to ttn at sch..
he tiok like to bring food o mayb bian dang to sch 4 me..
n my frens all said my dad was like 二十四孝老豆..
i never appreciate him b4..
but now..
i miss it a lot..
n when i was moved into new house when i was standard1..
i slept wif my parent..
n my dad wan me to sleep wif them de..
n my mom actually not v like it..
but jus to watch me 4 not sleep to late when in pri..
but if i watch movie too late n til fall sleep at de living room de sofa..
den he'll 'bao' me n bring me to room sleep..
many times d..
but tis happen til standard 4 nia..
i tiok changed room sleep wif my siblings d..
n when i got nitemare i shout my dad..
he wil quickly rush to me..
n he wil v angry when i wake up too late..
n siak sau..
i dunno y he wil tat angry..
but i think he kek sim gua..
nearly 4goted..
when i was vvv small..
he was de 1 tat accompany me till sleep..
i got a habbit when i was small..
i must hav a ppl to 'pai' my but softly den i ka can fal in sleep..
haha..
n now..
he stil v sayangme..
but no more unfair la..
but somethg weird tat..
i never discover..
my sis said tat..
my dad not v dare to scold my sis..
n they never quarrel but got quarrel wif my mom..
lol..
i never sedar if she nevr mention..
my dad v likely to scold me..
even i wash my head at nite he oso wan chap siao..
but he never scold my sis 4 washing head at nite..
walau~
haha..
dunno wat actually happen btw my dad n my sis..
a mistery of my family~
不能说的秘密
anyway..
i lov my dad a lot..
thx god tat my dad oso love me a lot..
wish him always healthy n happy wif my pretty mami..^^

sorry



i felt tat u r not liking to sms me d..
erm..
mayb..
i should learnt it..
erhem..
u said sorry to me jus tat u cant keep de promises..
but who care??
even me oso dun care..
coz..
i jus care to be wif u..
so noob..
i hate to blog abt u again..
cause i'll felt i'm idiot..
but my mind is fulled of u oni..
i dun wan to write anythg else other den u..
u r important!!
n u r wanted by me..
thx 4 bein my short term amusement..
i love u~
but never said u sorry again..
i dun understand de word..
n i wish not to learn..
bye~
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Friday, February 19, 2010

男生让女孩感动一生的事,你做过几件?

1.和我走在一起,即使我不挽着他,他会不习惯,把我的手勾过来挽着   
2.我吃不下和不喜欢吃的饭,他会毫不犹豫的塞进肚子。   
3.和我一起过马路时会紧紧地攥着我,我可以闭上眼睛放心的和他走   
4.自己用钱很拮据,但是知道我喜欢的东西,会把自己为数不多的钱攒下来,只是为了给我买东西   
5.如果我被人欺负,他会抓狂   
6.坐在公交车上,如果我选择只有一个位子的座位,哪怕别的地方还有空位,他也不会去做,只是为了守在我的身旁   
7.坐在公交车上看见有需要让座的人,当我准备站起来让座的时候他会把我按下,然后他起来让座   
8.每年的情人节,生日,纪念日,都不忘给我一份惊喜   
9.我第一次给他织的粗糙的围脖,他常常笑它长得像防弹衣,但是冬天出门的一定带着,而且会时不时地看着围脖傻笑   
10.把我带去见他的所有好哥们儿,在他们面前说今生非我不娶   
11.对于我给他的伤害,他从来只字不提,我内疚的时候他还反过来安慰我   
12.自己不喜欢逛服装店,还要陪我逛   
13.每次和他出去玩,明明很累,但是在我面前只在意我玩得开不开心,从来没有说过一个“累”字   
14.在那几天,他去给我买卫生巾   
15.填写表格记录手机号码时,总是无意把号码写成我的   
16.给我发信息的开头总是温柔的叫我“宝宝”   
17.坚决不让我穿暴露的得衣服上街,哪怕只是一点点   
18.每次我约会迟到,他等得再久,也不会抱怨一次   
19.逛街的时候总是让我走在里侧   
20.我生气任性的时候,他不会凶我,只会温柔的让我“乖”  
21.会在大庭广众之下给我一个拥抱或者一个吻   
22.问他“如果重新选择你会选择作男孩还是女孩?”,他会先让我选,如果我选女孩,他会依然做男孩来呵护我   
23.在大街上常常会做出寻找美女状,但是最后选择出来的对象还是我   
24.我有时会羡慕某个漂亮女孩,他会立刻说出她不如我的地方   
25.偶尔会撒娇,只对我一个人撒娇   
26.我爱钻牛角尖,生气的时候他从来宁可让我打他骂他,也不让我自己折磨自己,甚至有时看到我自己折磨自己他会哭   
27.我喜欢的好玩的东西会毫不犹豫的给我买,偶尔会和我抢,但从来都是我赢   
28.明明不爱哭,经常为我掉眼泪   
29.吵架,我认错之后,他会向我道歉不应该发脾气   
30.和他在一起时,注意力只会在我的身上,手机都不常碰   
31.我讲的笑话,哪怕不好笑,他也会笑   
32.如果我要对他犯怀,淘气,即使一开始抵抗,最后也会乖乖就范,牺牲自己形象让我开心   
33.全能,所有的家务都会,甚至缝衣服   
34.我送的东西他都收得很好   
35.我害怕的时候总会说“别怕,有我呢”
36.会打电话来:“没什么特别的事,只是想听听你的声音”  
37.会给我化妆,演出的时候妆都是他给我化的   
38.我喜欢撒娇,他总是宠溺的看着我笑,偶尔说我坏包   
39.宁可苦着自己,也绝对不苦了我   
40.他的朋友请客吃饭,要求不能带家属,他不答应,差点和朋友吵架。原因是不忍心让我晚上一个人孤零零的在饭堂吃饭,而他和朋友们出去大吃大喝   
41.常常说一句话:只要有我一口吃的,就不会让你饿着  
42.从来不认干妹妹  
43.从来不认红颜知己(他希望我是他的红颜知己)   
44.前女朋友想和他和好,被严厉拒绝,而且绝对没有藕断丝连现象   
45.给我花的钱比给他自己花的都多,但丝毫没有怨言   
46.对我说:我幸福的笑脸就是他最大的幸福   
47.把我的照片放在钱包里,每次我要看,他都装做紧张的样子,让我特别怀疑,打开一看,都是我的照片....然后他就坏笑   
48.常常对我说,宝宝,别离开我   
49.手机为了我24小时开机,我随时可以找到他   
50.和他在网上聊天,很晚了他催我去睡觉,我不听话他会生气   
51.我不懂得随时可以找他,他都会帮我解决
52.会望着我的眼睛唱情歌给我听

泪海

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曲/季忠平

愛已不能動
還有什麼值得我心痛
想你的天空 下起雨來
沒人心疼的黑夜
臉頰兩行鹼鹼的淚水
是你 哦 是你
讓我望穿淚水 肝腸寸斷
你怎麼捨得讓我的淚流向海
付出的感情永遠 找不回來
你怎麼捨得讓我的愛流向海
傷心的往事一幕幕
就像潮水 將我掩埋

愛已不能動
還有什麼值得我心痛
想你的天空 下起雨來
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沒人心疼的黑夜
臉頰兩行鹼鹼的淚水
是你 哦 是你
讓我望穿淚水 肝腸寸斷
你怎麼捨得讓我的淚流向海
付出的感情永遠 找不回來
你怎麼捨得讓我的愛流向海
傷心的往事一幕幕
就像潮水 將我掩埋
閉上了雙眼 還看見和你的纏綿
眼角的淚水 喜不去心中
一遍一遍的誓言
你怎麼捨得讓我的淚流向海
付出的感情永遠 找不回來
你怎麼捨得讓我的愛流向海
傷心的往事一幕幕
就像潮水 將我掩埋

你走了以后

那天。。
放工。。
我一个人走路回家。。
下着雨。。
觉得。。。
很自由。。
也很寂寞。。
但这种寂寞是享受。。
享受一个人走在街上。。
原来,
我可以一个人。。
你。。
在那边还好吗?
没见到你快一个礼拜了。。
自你去新家坡后。。
电话响起时。。
不再是你。。
也干脆。。
不加额。。
控制自己。。
前夜。。
我驾车。。
载我全家去皇后湾看戏。。
你不在。。
我努力学着变勇敢。。
让你回来。。
发现我的成长。。
忙着工作。。
渐渐的。。
习惯了。。
宁安啊。。
你真的习惯没有我吗?
短期的分开。。
看来。。
我没有流过一滴泪。。
这几天有许多感触。。
如果,
我们能像植树和湘琴一样那该多好?
一切就是从不可能到发生了。。
很多人都好奇着。。
我们的关系太奇妙了。。
我也无法解释。。
就是[发生了]。。
然后要停止。。
是又非是。。
迷迷糊糊。。
开始了我们的旅途。。
也许你消失了。。
我也会长大了。。
以后重逢的我们。。
希望不会视而不见。。
盼。。
分开后的日子。。

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Thursday, February 11, 2010

。。

最近很喜欢听梁静茹的歌。。
也爱哼。。
有空听听不错。。
赫赫。。
诚意推荐:
1。無條件為你
2。為我好
3。fly away
4。別再為他流淚
5。分手快樂
6。我决定
7。丝路

wao~

working there..
i start to noe ppl from differ school..
n start to play fool around..
i like tis typr of feel..
its like in de sch..
n..
tmr nite is our gathering day..
hope..
to c u all there..
hehe..
n..
abt de valentine 2010..
it mayb is a disappointment la..
but watever la..
we stil left a bit time..
dun always so worry of my feeling..
countdown..
8more days of working time..
den..
national service..
wakaka..
actually not willing to go..
haiz..
my god..
n i vvv scare of my result..
i had a bad sense abt it..
...
hope i could never cry abt de last important exam..
i would never 4giv myself..
stitch..
i really hope u jus a normal ppl..
y u so desire to fly to singapore??
n y m i so useless..
[wondering..]
i hate empty..
mentally n physically empty without u..
de lesson i could never learn now..
suntime i wil hope tat u r jojo.....
ha...
watever la..
uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu will leaving..
TIS IS DE TRUTH we all noe..
n i hope i never heard of it..
im damn crazy now..
luckily i got work now..
no time to thk such thing..
haha..
now time showing 12:34am..
ok..
now...
i dun wan sleep yet..
cause i'm skipping work tmr..
hang out wif my sista..
erm ya..
i now vvv hunger of buy something..
a DIY handie craft..
its a stick up house..
i wan to buy since form1..
but i couldn't found it..
wish some1 buy 4 me as b'day present de..
wakaka!
no la..
haah..
rm39.90..
erm..
ok la..
de price reasonable..
i wan buy!!
at THE ROOMS..
yaya..
tmr go c..
yeah!!
woohoo~
after buy jus upload de pic la..
hehe~
n i feel tat i had start to loose my fren's trusting d..
coz..
i had biasa not to reply fren's msg..'
not to find them when bored..
n got no time to gather again..
all ppl work work work..
damn bored..'
haiz..
realize smtg?
but i think u all won guess tiok la..
haha..
nothing la..
jus in a bad mood..
cause..
no because..
lame...
i noe..
haha..
erm..
good..
is time to scold o angry of smtg..
dun b too care..
jus to release myself..
lol!!
y ns wan take me?!
y u stitch wan bek johor?!
y u wan go singapore?!
y all ppl thought me so bad?!
y u all wan say me fat?!
my face big not i wan de?!
y i need to make u all tat i not really noe happy?!
y u always got de wrong signal?!
y m i so stupid n ugly?!
i wan u!
get lost!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please..
i dun like to cover my real person wif UR wanted 'mask'..
i wan myself bek!!
i'll let u laugh..
coz i'll step u under my foot!
dun play play!!
HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, February 5, 2010

i need money..

actually got many things to rite abt..
jus dunno y..
turn v lazy blogging..
today..
i noe two girls..
one call qi qin..
n one call jun ling..
v nice ppl..
n start to chat n talk while lunch..
feel good..
haha..
at least can noe ppl from work..
n..
de guy..
today kaki busuk again..'v gai..
n jojo v scare me now at de factory..
coz scare ppl misunderstand tat we r couple..'damn him..
haha...
n my bro adi 4,5days din bek home liao..
v sui tat..
i din miss him at all..
lol..
pukul myself..
n working life r vvv fast..
no time 4 me to think to much..
n no time think of wat..
jus working..
eat..
n sleep..
den de other day come..
haha..
but i dun enjoy..
but to earn money..T^T..
gambate!!
i love u money!!
money money cum!!

Saturday, January 30, 2010

my family deal..

my bro recently din sleep at home..
goin to work hard 4 money..
mayb is work hard to meeting wif my da sau oso..
haha..
n my parent..
recently my mood was not stable..
easily mad..
o mayb..
near 'aunty visit' period gua..
haha..
n i feel v hate myself when i quarrel wif them..
but it couldn't made any changes too..
haiz..
n my sis..
she is goin to buy her new car..
toyota vios..
new series..
but i scare she will couldn't afford lo..
but she adi order..
jus wait de car reach..
n i can sit new car when she came bac.. haha..
but not me drive la..
jealous??
who cal u no tis type of sis??
wakaka!!
de end of my blogging today~
miss my everyday@.@

working deal..

hate working..
but 4 hp..
i kena tahan..
urgh........
'kek sai'..
haha..
many sacred heart high sch de student work at there..
some v piah..
kept ot..
de guy i hate most..
always work till 11.00pm..
jiak sai..
but i'm glad tat he'll resign soon..
syok!!
he really v ki hiao..
always talkin you de mei de..
n not respect u when jokin..
lame..
n he likes to flirt wif there de malay lao yi..
n manja wif our trainee..
beh kua nia..
shit..
n i got arranged to do de hot glue gun after my off day..
lol..
v pain using de gun whole day..
initially..
i hate it a lot..
coz my hand n finger will v pain...
n my muscle will ache too..
cant sleep on de 1st nite..
coz really pain..
my right hand..
den after few days using it..
i started to biasa..
n found it easier den manual insert..
will mengantuk wan..
swt!!
n..
at there i not really dare to talk wif ppl..
unless they talk to mi..
gai!!
n i noe some of them de name..
lim yu-jin[de boy i hate]
elicia
pei boon,
gan lay teng
talk wif them 4 few times nia..
sien.....................
n most of them from sacred heart..
n they ooso study 5s1 last yr..
haha..
clever ppl too..
n me always can talk wif jojo nia..
i always hope tat he can do soldering de..
den he can sit near me n chat wif me..
but..
de adult seems not really noe him..
he still inserting lame component..
haha..
sien ka bui si..
n de stupid guy tiok soldering..
always manja here n there..
me liang roma..
beh tahan..
n i wan try do ict..
can learn much..
but mayb i won gt de opportunity d..
haha..
but nvm la..
i jus targeting my money..
monday get salary...
tmr visit gary ong..
excited!!
n today..
got a guy de leg v smelly..
after working so long..
i recently v scare tat my leg will v smelly after start working..
coz foot wil sweat de..
althought sit in aircond room..
i now everyday v rajin cuci kaki..
coz i really afraid tat my leg wil smelly as tat ppl de..
de guy tat full of smell same age wif me..
from sacred heart too..
1st class ppl oso..
mayb..
n he is tall n fat..
face full of pimples..
n i dun like him..
actually i never notice him b4 until today..
really smell like a salt fish..
busuk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
n he likes dunno n kept walk here n there..
make me wan insane..
lol...
i hate work..
tis is my conclusion..
de end~

nex episode..

after had a window shop 4 almost an hour more..
we decided to depart to 'huo guo zhi jia' le..
n..
all ppl cant go..
haiz..
n my gang ppl all need work o transport..
cant reach earlier..
so me n aun abt 6-7pm smthg tiok start eat le..
so.. duno say..
haha..
eat till v full..
of coz.. he pay too.
haha..
a day wif free of charge..
only we two..
havin our dinner tat time..
actually quite enjoy tat day..
feel like a couple's date..
as i hunger 4 so long time d..
b'day=dating..
haha..
hope 4 de nex date..
den he sent me bac home..
as he was tired d..
n gt work on de nex day..
de nite was so cool..
de atmosphere was chilling..
hugging him..
he drove slowly..
n purposely choose a longer way bac home..
when reached home..
he sent me till my house..
den i change my cloth..
wearing a black XL size t-shirt..
n a short pant..
he went bac..
i sms him..
[sms me when reach home..]
den he reply..
said tat he 4 got to giv me smthg..
cal me go downstairs..
den i quickly go out..
he jus stand beside de lift there..
when he saw me..
he jus a bit nervous..
n dropped his hp..
n de cover broke..
he jus picked it up..
n said nothin..
he den hug me..
n kiss me on my forehead..
feel v warming..
his lips..
is soft..
n i like gt electric shock..
stay a bit blank..
he said..
i really dun wan to leave a regret..
n had a tight hug..
den i face up on him..
n kiss bac on his cheek..
my 1st kiss to a boy..
but not a france kiss la of coz..
i not tat dare yet..
haha..
i felt wanna cry on tat time..
tis is de best present tat i wanted..
sometimes..
i rather choose a simple act to replace a grand matter..
it is nice..
when u get a true love..
it is difficult..
mayb there is jus once..
so jus enjoy it..
there is a tired beginning..
targetless process..
n a sweet ending story of my 18th birthday..
it is not huge..
but satisfied.. wif my [stitch]..
muack!
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~THE END~

Friday, January 29, 2010

continue my b'day story..

一大清早,
睡醒。。去爬山。。
赫赫。。
跟谁??
还用问吗??
当然是我的宝贝咯!
说实话。。
真的很讨厌爬山。。
但是跟你。。
当然爽!!
说真的。。
有点忘了过程。。
只知道你一直努力配合我的脚步。。
慢慢的。。
限制了你。。
也许,
你真的走太快了。。。
我知道,有些事你最后会离我而去。。
我跟不着。。你也不再回头望。。
继续走。。
也许,
两条直线交叉后,
不再intersact了。
而且越来越远。。
算了。。
撤得有点远了。。
走下山的路途。。
你一直要捉着我的颈项。。
一直说要cekik我。。
而且开始了我们的。。
345,356和584的游戏。。
过瘾。。
你还背了我走几步。。
是我胆小。。
要你放下我。。
也许,
有些事,可以很短暂。。
但不失它的价值。。
记得,
你曾爱过我的事实。。
短暂,
但对我宝贵。。
到山脚时。。
焦了的cy lim出现要上班了。。
赫赫。。
有缘。。
然后就回了。。
回家路上,
我抱着你的腰。。
有次。。
因为驾太快了。。
我把手放在你肩上。。
你竟能两手放空。。
任由摩托走。。
然后,
把我的手从你肩上拿下你的腰。。
然后,
继续驾。。
酷毙了!!
之后,你也会摸摸我的手。。
确保我还在。。
被珍惜的感觉真的很好。。
到了你家。。
你煮了特制煎蛋给我吃。。
说实话。。
不是很好吃。。
赫赫。。
不要hurt到。。
但我有吃到一口一口的认真和爱。。
[辣椒煎蛋]
过后,冲凉。。
你拿了你姐姐的裤给我选。。
很多很多。。
本来选了黄色的。。
但你说好笑。。
就拿了另外一条。。
你还借了我你戏剧研究会的衣服。。。
好长哦!
裤子却好短。。
看起来好像没穿裤。。
哈哈。
我走出厕所时。。
你唱起了生日歌。。
桌上摆了一片蛋糕。。
超小的。。
然后,三根蜡烛点着。。
很吓倒。。
然后你又拿出一箩箩的东西。。
寿司、jelly。。。
全是你自己亲手做的。。
赫赫。。开心。。
但三文鱼有点怪。。。
你拿去煎了。。
有点怪吧?!
但为了我。。麻烦你了。。
吃饱了。。
接下来的活动。。
你绝猜不到。。
赫赫。。
是睡觉!!
一起在他家睡觉。。
太有点。。唔。。哈哈。。
当然没什么事发生啦。。
在他客厅睡。。开冷气。。
我睡不着。。
拿gary的魔术三角块玩。。
越玩越乱。。
没天分。。咳。。
你应该很累了。。
却陪我不睡了。。
起来,
你送了我一条链。。加上一双耳环。。
但有点短也。。
不过你送就是好。。
然后,
在你家上网。。
你姐醒来要上班。。
有点吓倒。。
然后你姐给了我两人的免费戏票。。
[但昨夜与航和jojo看去了]
生日前夕你送了我钱包。。
我出门有带哟!
知识工作不带。。当然的。。
然后出发回我家。。
等我换衣再出发。。
你在楼下等。。
其实。。
很有男女朋友的感觉。。
享受。。
然后我穿了一件连衣裙。。
成熟风的。。
你们肯定没看过。。
除了美雪。。
坐摩托穿裙。。
怎样?!哈哈!!
den u driv me to perangin watch movie..
name.. paranormal activity...
lame movie..
whole cinema only got we 2 audience..
v gai..
haha..
de movie talk abt ghost o demon??
i not sure..
jus de last scene really made me goosebumps..
haha..
killing scene..
but dunno y n how..
really.. speechless..
no wonder no ppl watch..
haha..
it felt like we had book de whole cinema to watch lame horror movie..
geng!!
after watch..
we went 4 shop..
i buy he pays..
but de main point is..
i not really noe to shop wif my belovedd wan..
haiz..
so i jus bought a包鞋..
as my shoe adi v geli..
bought at mx work de shop..
stefeno..
like de color of de shoe la...
keep it to wear on cny..
hehe..
den we bought nothin d..
he suddenly think of wan took大头贴。。
but we jus found out tat de shop din open d..
lol.. gai nia..
my b'day so grand meh?? public holiday ar??
dare to not open..
den we jus kept sang here n there..
to b continue..
working tmr again..
muack!!
nite..
wana sleep sleep..

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

没有照片的生日。。

今天,
是本小姐的大寿。。
收到来自‘世界’各地朋友的祝福。。
hehe..
‘大力’ 叻??
没有啦。。
只是想不到,
连chia chia, occ, gary ong,shin ying n kh lim都来祝福我。。
吓倒咯!!
开心!!
昨夜,
我,卿,敏,益坐凯航的车去autocity..
倒数我的生日//
waliao~
全部都没跟父母讲会过北海。。
坏了。。
哈哈。。
然后,我们去maxim's cake house拿到蛋糕后,
就出发了。。
幸好没塞车。。
我们在boston吃。。
我,卿和航叫了椰浆饭。。
民和益叫了不知什么海鲜四川饭。。
结果他们后悔了。。
哈哈。。不好吃。。
我也后悔。。
因为冲动下多叫了鸡翅膀。。
妈的!!
吃了三十多块。。
然后我们就到处走走。。
那边有小商店。。
但没买到什么。。
然后,
又无聊到不知倒要到哪里切蛋糕。。
lol..
然后结果打算去旧关仔角。。
但忘了谁的提议。。
到宁安家。。
哪儿知。。
原来,他去我家等我。。
感觉上应该等很久了。。
失望。。
都是你啦!
玩什么好消息坏消息。。
最后,不跟我讲。。
惊喜没了。。
闷。。
然后,我们就在他家附近唱生日歌、吹蜡烛。。
xia sui..
haha..
在路边,暗天化夜下。。
赫赫。。
然后,整粒蛋糕就由我带回了。。
=.=..
朋友们送了我一个戒指。。
上面刻了‘fren forever' n 'big face mey'
like it so much!!
thx 4 u all..
now late d..
to b continue..
my real birthday..
hehe..
nitezz~

Monday, January 18, 2010

my website

misssour.weebly.com

平复了的心情。。。

想了一整晚。。
失眠了。。
也哭了。。
是我还执著吗?
还剩两个月多。。
我就要进营了。。
那时侯,
他也要走了。。
到遥远的新加坡完成他的梦想。。
我可能连送行的机会也没了。。
所以我得珍惜你我的日子。。
也许我这辈子都遇不到像你那样的男生了。。
昨晚,
有人鼓励我等到你回来。。
但,我很害怕。。
如果,我愿意等,你愿意让我等你吗?
但我觉得你应该不会让我等。。
等待是苦多过甜的滋味。。
但如果你希望我等,
只要你一句,
我就会等。。
其实,
你有权力认识比我更好的女生。。
只想祝福你。。
愿分开后,
你能忘了我。。
继续你的生活。。
而我,也会学着长大。。
希望还能拥抱的时刻,
我还能享用你的温暖。。
也许你看到这儿。。
会觉得跟我一样心里酸酸的。。
但不用紧。。
一切会过去的。。
我只想目前能幸福下去。。
直到最后一刻的到来。。
还有一个问题,
你算是我的初恋吗?
我的初恋男友?
赫赫。。
我当你是吧。。
谢谢你的爱。。
我会更坚强。。
追寻各自的梦想吧!
我们还有两个月。。
加油加油^^

歌名:最後

附註:
語言:國語, 曲長:3m49s
作曲:袁惟仁, 編曲:黃中岳
監製:李正帆, 填詞:袁惟仁

或許我已失去談論幸福的權利
就連最後的最後都不是我的決定
我總是在絢爛的夜晚顯得消極
懷念著那段遺憾心裡卻是感激
如果是因為那最後一次的爭執
而讓今天的我們能夠變得誠實
是不是我應該感謝你當時的冷靜
只是我顫抖的手一直到如今
最後 我們都錯過
愛過 不一定會有結果
最後 走不到最後
愛你卻又必須放手

O缘X份

原谅我,还放不下。。
原来。。
我不能像我对豪说的那么潇洒。。
毕竟快近一年的感情。。
不能说放就放。。
我很想停止。。
可是我怕我会崩溃。。
结束了。。
完了。。
很可怕。。
今天,
打完羽球。。
知道这件事。。
原来,
时间不多了。。
可是我不想放手。。
但我不能自私。。
他有他的理想。。
一开始。。
是我自己自寻的。。
我怪不了谁。。
现实是残酷的。。
也许,
真的有缘无份吧?!
很想找人哭。。
但是原来,
我不知该找谁了。。
‘爱是会让人死的’。。
原来是真的。。
结束了。。
一切的一切。。
没了。。
原来,我受不起。。
素媚!加油吧!!
不要掉泪哟!!
要潇洒到最后一刻。。
宁安,你也要加油噢!
谢谢你让我爱过。。
让我们走到最后一秒吧!

Saturday, January 16, 2010

风筝

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我不要將你多綁住一秒 我也知道天空多美妙 請你替我瞧一瞧

*天上的風箏哪兒去了 一眨眼不見了
誰把它的線剪斷了 你知不知道

從前的我們哪兒去了 路太遠我忘了
如果你想飛我明瞭 你自由也好

#我不要將你多綁住一秒 我也知道天空多美妙 請你替我瞧一瞧

重複 *,#

看你穿越雲端飛的很高 站在山上的我大聲叫喔...
也許你呀不會聽到 把夢想找到要過得更好

我不要愛情的低潮 我會微笑眼淚不准掉
我很好後來的你好不好 你會知道我沒有走掉 回憶飛進風裡了

天上的風箏哪兒去了...

special surprise..

today..
plan to go visit madame at balik pulau..
2pm++
n i never thought of these surprise..
at de beginning plan..
is jojo fetch me..
den suddenly sm1 pop out..
guess who??
yes!
i thk u gt de correct ans..
is my big big present..
ONG LIN AUN
i gt a little bit shock..
but i thk my happiness had overcome my shock..
hehe..
v touch..
he adi pakat yesterday nite wif jojo..
he told him not to tell me..
i feel myself important in u..
u bac n rush early from work..
jus to accompany me..
feel dunno wat to describe my touching..
den we depart..
den up hill n down hill.
reach balik pulau..
jojo bought laksa n cheezy wedges 4 madame..
so nice of him toward madame..
as my stitch said..(hehe..nvm gua..)
如果是普通朋友不可能会跑酱远来看她的。。
haha..
i thk u gt it rite..
isn't it??
wakakaka!!
den we direct go in de big door..
n nid register..
omg!!
jojo noe all de thgs of madame..
including her no., her team house n a lot..
lol..
haha..
386 hor if i'm not mistaken..
n she is in black hawk team.. which is green in color wan..
after registeration..
de ppl there annouce v loudly through speaker..
'...wirawati lok yi ying...'
i 4gt wat its sentence..
i jus rmb they annouce her name loudly in public..
tell her gt ppl find her..
haha..
feel a bit xia sui lo..
den we met her at de canteen..
n we saw yee wei..
lol..
she turn dark so much lor..
madame oso gt darker a bit la..
but not tat obvious..
den we oso saw many hehs de students there..
den we sat down n chat..
heard she said..
there v tired lo..
wan wear like tat de shirt..
like tat de kuzi..
n like tat de shoes..
lol..
den marching..
v pitiful n tired lo..
i dunno can i undergo tat onot..
n go there must interact wif other races..
v gai..
my speaking so terrible.. hw??
n i will feel v lonely de..
n v scary..
mayb i will cry everyday..
like i form2 went de camp..
i dunno any1..
n i dunno hw to make fren..
v shit wan..
i jus hope i won got arrange to too far de place..
den my fren n family can come visit me..
i now v scare to go there d..
i most hate there bcoz of de hygiene nia..
especially menstrual period..
madame say..
to avoid bein mess up wif de 'dirty' thingy..
we gal must wash our pad b4 throw away..
omg!!
so geli..
hw do i touch my bloody pad??
n had to wash it..
really crazy..
haiz..
y girl nid menstrual??
haiz.. troublesome..
i must take enough azimat there d..
haha..
n actually madame din thin tiok la..
n her appetite still tat good..
haha..
n jojo brought his sis wedding ceremony de buffet food 4 her..
she kept n eat later..
i really hope them can 2gether lo..
v sweet de..
haha..
she oso v talkactive ko..
kept talkin abt her life n frens at there..
n gt a girl same day bday wif me..haha..
n a girl name 梅敏敏。。有点怪是吧?
haha..
n they said she looks like camille..
a bit lo.. hehe..
n i kepit a ppr inside her red note book..
yaya.. it couldn't b a ppr of money..
i adi broke ok?!
haha..
hehe.. tis is my secret..
hope she will happy receiving it la..
haha..
n den we tiok bac liao lo..
n my cute stitch jus realize tat..
he 4got to unplug his key from his motor..
lol.. damn cute.. haha..
he rushed out to find his key..
while madame n jojo were晒月光。。
haha...
den he found his key..
luckily no1 wan steal his powerful(??he said wan) motor..
abo i dunno hw to bac liao..
her camp visit time is 9am till 5pm..
i'll miss her lo..
long time to go ko..
haiz..
she said she wan go 4 college.. mayb??
dunno la..
i noe i dun wan go ns nia..
lazy..
when bac..
jojo suddenly driv v slow..
mayb..
i think he started to miss her gua..
haha..
cute couple..
hehe..
den i continue hugging his waist..
den me n aun aun go 4 dinner at sungai pinang..
i really think tat..
i not tat会为他着想咯。。
everything i nid him help decide..
help me pay..
n help me pick up de 芹菜from de蚝煎..
你很体贴。。
但我却不到你一成。。
有时会想。。
对你公平吗。。
你知道我喜欢什么不喜欢吃什么。。
但我却不清楚你的饮食习惯。。
我会不会很难服侍呢?
反省着。。
然后,你带我到那儿的豪宅想看看陈景安的家看。。
waliao..
den u brought me to play kite at there..
actually i never play kite b4..
i jus made b4 but never play..
c u so excited..
den u buy from an uncle..
manatahu..
u tak tau make it fly..
xia sui nia..
haha..
de uncle v pro..
yi liang xia tiok make it fly liao..
actually i can feel ur stress too la..
de uncle teach n his wife watching us..
haha..
i noe wat u felt..
finally..
wan noe de ending??
guess it!!
he becomes pro?!
erm..
nope actually..
haha..
our kite bein cut by others ppl..
lol..
shit lo them..
bully us beginner..
haiz..
i not dare to play oso..
n de kite drown in de sea..
mou nyan tai..haha..
we den keep pull de string..
v long long..
haven play haven noe tat..
yuan lai..
c so near nia..
de distance was vvvv far away..
pull nia tiok jiak lat liao..
honey..
u look lun zun but cute today..
haha..
hope tat can c u successful fly up a kite in future..
i'll keep de tin of kite rope..
as my memory of u..
i love u stitch..
so much tat u couldn't expect..
mmmmuack!!
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Thursday, January 14, 2010

borinzzz

dunno y..
my jaw is paining now..
v suffer leh..
like wan drop d..
suddenly rmb of ylt..
'my jaw dropped.. my finger trembled..'
haha..
n i discover smthg..
i adi not used to write thgs abt my life likes b4..
i now more used to rite some geli geli de blog..
u reli change me a lot lar.. honey..
haiz..
felt bored to stay at home d..
everyday liv like a pig lifestyle..
eat,sleep,watch tv n on9...
n oso bath!! of course..haha..
i wan play badminton!!
i wan go pasar malam!!
i wan entertainment!!
i wan play wif madame!!
i wan in sch n fool wif my frens!!
i wan! i wan! i wan!!!!!
sucks life now..
yucks!!
driven me insane!!
crazy!!
borin!!
n pityful...
without a penny!!
money.. money.. money..
when u ka bui come??
i wan buy clothes..
i wan buy shoes..
i wan hang out wif fren!!
i wan go beach play..
i wan swim!!
omg!!
bored!!
till when i'm goin to live like tis??
it's f*ckin borin..
break out!!
maybe i should go out alone n walk..
enjoy myself..
lol..
i wish tat my sis can come bac..
den i can 'help' spend her money..
haha..
n most important tat i can go out without de worry of insufficient of cash!!
wakakaka!!
ya..
i agree tat i'm greedy n keji..
it's an unfortunate 4 sm1 to b my sis..
haha..
but no matter wat..
i love her a lot..
n i miss her now..
hope faster chinese new year..
but quite disappointed tat tis year cny is on valentine day lo..
sien..
lost a day of celebration..
lol..
haha..
i now v jealous ppl tat still scooling lo..
haiz..
n i thk..
y i'm not 1st batch 4 ns leh??
den i won borin liao..
everyday oso excitement..
n dunno who curse me recently..
my legs is full with insect bites..
red spots all over my skin surface..
dunno y insect hate me now..
but i noe y i hate them now!!
itchy!!
n i absolutely hate to grow a plant!
coz of de string shaped creature..
worms!!
i hate i hate i hate..
but dunno y tibo so likes them??
las sat..
me,tibo,yc,cb,jojo n kh went to bukit dumbar de badminton court to play..
b4 start play..
we went to pick相思豆。。
n look stupid..
but i like it..
coz i din go pick..
oni de rest join de pick up activity..
lol..
xia sui..
haha..
c them lun zun lun zun..
but really pationate..
i respect them!! haha..
in de progress of collection...
tibo losses..
1.afew pairs of shoe laces..
2.her mom's s-shaped hanger..
3. n a stack of 5cent coins..
de凶手is.. mr.jojo..
jik ak ka bui si..
n wat tibo got after de activity is..
a毛毛虫!!
she really disgusting..
but at 1st was me support her pick up de chong chong d..
eyao xiu lo..
den we start our badminton..
6ppl 'kek' in a court..
lol..
luckily..
court beside all no ppl use..
so we illegally used de court..
no ppl bother oso..
mayb de court too not popular gua..
den i got created a way to let ppl lose while game..
i put my stockins at my enemy side..
den they lose..
its like xia jiang tou..
haha..
n de iron made tibo..
she had broken jojo's racket..
incredible!!
as a repay 4 made her shoe lace lost..
haaha..
den after we all tired..
we sat down n wait time flow..
3hrs..
tired ka bui si..
den we all chat..
n de tibo opened de mao mao chong de cover..
we all thought it dead d..
so we let it there n continue chating..
manatahu..
tibo suddenly screamed!
where my mao mao zhong!!
lol..
she stand up..
n de disgust creature jus below her ass..
lol..
haha..
ha tiok me n cb nia..
hit her tibo ka zai..
den we bac..
n de nex day directly muscle ache..
waliao eh..
pain ka bui si..
especially my bud..
haha..
mayb jump too much liao..
wakakaka..
but enjoy frens hang out together without using money..
kh started working d..
our lame gang less one ppl d..
haiz..
but tmr we all goin to hike!!
yeah!!
with my beloved gang..
its ok till now la..
tata~
c u..
muack!!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

lululula!!

today go to yc house chat..
n play wif a blacker girl den yc tat noe talk chi n hokkien..
really wu yan..
dunno y..
i still fobia of children..
haiz..
scare interact wif them..
gai..
i more prefer to become kid..
n bully de elder..
haha..
mayb i really born to b a youngest child in family..
haha..
i felt lucky..
n..
no more thgs to say liao..
recently feel v normal n neutral..
jus v unwaited to bac sch nia..
haha..
tata~
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n u all r de type of my best fren.. love u all.. gambatae^^

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

闲日子。。

今天,
与舒婷、美雪、翊卿、航弟、jojo和峻凯。。
到queensbay闲逛。。
无聊。。
我、航、婷、卿四人等。。
一起坐巴士到qb..
疯的是。。我们坐错巴士。。
坐到304。。
妈的。。
要绕一大圈才到。。
变态!!
让美雪等。。
然后叻。。
我们就乱逛。。
找zi yin在哪间内衣店。。
哈哈!!
找了很久才知道是在ground floor..
途中遇见玲慧。。
让人掉牙的是。。
一对好友。。
lh竟然不知道zinc在qb做工。。
太不像样了吧?!
lh在step做。。
然后,我们遇见了yee ching..
去她店捣蛋。。
结果才知道。。
原来,
她在那里也会乱摸人家。。
真的是没事做。。
haiz~哈哈!
之后我们就到perangin走。。
航和卿回了。。
剩下jojo n jk..
me n mx..
看到很多喜欢的衣。。
却因没钱。。可悲!!
回的时候,
可爱的两位男士or基佬?!
为了陪美雪和我,
愿陪我们搭302巴士(这样他们得走远路)
谢谢咯!

小插曲:
我在jusco there saw khong yi..
n i tiok kia..
process..
we were finding jojo n jk at jusco..
den a team of guys walk in front of us..
den i thk..
erm..
r those guys clhs??
den he suddenly face bac..
waliao..
i tiok kia..
n fast roll my view to other place..
act as i din saw him..
den he leave..
den i told mx n yc..
lol..
den they tiok keep annoyed me wif..
"刚刚说什么康har??"
den another reply..
"康。。康什么?康尹啦!"
wat la??
lame.. better b careful tyc..

during waiting 4 de guys..
me,mx n tyc go 4 de kid park play..
lol..
childish lo all de game..
haha..

n tis sat i'm goin to visit madame lo..
haha..
unwaited..
hehe..
bye~

Sunday, January 10, 2010

continue blogging..

最近闷毙了。。
有一友。。
回复单身了。。
希望她开心就好。。
昨夜仪莹。。
sms我。。
跟我说。。
她在那儿,不习惯。。
好几次,哭了。。
想想,两个月后,我是否也如此?
很可怕。。
不过很开心的是。。
有一个人,对她很好。。
也成了她的依赖对象。。
诚心祝福他们俩。。赫赫。。
jojo..加油噢!^^
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my bro adi noe my relationship wif aun..
he recently quite abnormal..
keep calling me cooking..
cal me cook 4 him..
even cook soup 4 him..
soup i no problem..
jus tat..
i hate to fried things..
coz i'm terrified of 油溅。。
haiz..
yaya..i admit tat i'm timid..
but i'll try to fight against it..
hope to c my result soon too..
n..
really feel borin..
but v enjoy tis type of lifestlye..
i now jus understand y my sis hate to work when she was my age..
really OMG!!
i jus work 4 a week..(oni 5 days..sat n sun excluded)
i adi wan nuts!!
nid to scare of sm1.. n doin useless thg..
i more prefer go bac home..
lay on my bed.. den study books..
enjoy!!
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my sis..
she was too super d..
she broke down de television at her 宿舍..
geng le??
haha..
de oni thg tat me n she same in.. (except our outlooks)
same steam n lun zun..
haha..
dunno they wan my sis to pay bac not..
she now v worry..
pity her..
miss her too..
work alone at kl...haiz~
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my bro story...
1st day help his work..
lol..
not v bad la..
jus i'm v scared when my bro's partners quarrel..
v serious n loud..
1st time saw..
i discover smthg..
best fren better dun work as partner do business..
友谊是最避忌谈到[钱]字。。
u say rite onot..
haiz..
den i go take 4 my 1st salary..
rm44.60 4 2 days..
nid to bac to there on 21st jan.. 4pm..
sien..
n we got epf..
althought oni work 4 so few days..
haha..
i swear.. i must study well..
n b a profession..
dun wan b look down by some1 tat not really intelligent den me..
hng!! haha..
study better..
hope to get bac sch study form6 soon..
school sick now..
now everyday on9..
i oso dunno wan go where surf d..
keep download game n play sudoku on9 nia..
sien!!
now wan watch bac few movies../drama?
korean drama:玻璃鞋,对手,黄真尹(not宋慧乔的)。。。
but i haven success to find these movies at any dvd stall..
sienzZ..
every1 now busy working earn money..
but c me doin wat now??
so wat?!
i love my stle!!
haha..
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after saw few ppl blogs..
i realize tat..
my life is perfect till now oso..
my family is perfect..
my frens r incredible..
even i found my love 1..
i had perfect memories of my secondary life..
n a plenty of ppl tat treat me nice..
i din really face a hardship until now..
my life was too smooth n lucky..
i wonder how long i'll maintain like tis..
but i hope it won change 4ever..
i love u all!!
i love my life...^*^

*i won stop blogging until de day i lay in de coffin..
i would like to share my everything to any1 tat interested to noe..
but i hope tat there r smthg tat still need to b keep as privacy..
thx^^


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Saturday, January 9, 2010

boring

vvv sienzzzZZ..
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Thursday, January 7, 2010

今天

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今天,
我和他。。
心血来潮。。
我炒饭给他吃。。
但由于技术不好。。
有点焦。。
而且掉了根发在里面。。
丢脸死了。。
真的很讨厌厨房。。
怎么办??
他也炒了一盒东炎炒饭给我。。
真的有点差异咯。。
我的淡而无味。。
闷。。
要好好学下厨了。。
今早。。
很不听话。。
一直顶老妈的话。。
内疚着。。
她要我帮她洗sotong。。
我的天!!
很讨厌那些墨。。
一直不小心弄破。。
整只手黑了。。恶心!
还要把它们的眼睛切掉。。
会见血的。。
我的妈妈。。够力!!
而且。。
还要把它们的膜撕掉。。
黏黏的。。
我突然很佩服我老妈。。
这么多年。。
辛苦了。。
每次吃得那么爽。。
却不知道。。你很累。。
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虽然我总爱跟你吵。。
但是我真的很爱你。。
希望你健健康康。。
长命百岁。。
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Tuesday, January 5, 2010

@.@

almost 3days din c u le..
em..
miss u a lot..
like v long time d............

las day

yesterday was my las day working..
a girl beside me..
who same day start work wif me..
she suddenly asthma...
n she din ask 4 help..
dun no whether she is shy leh o wat..
v gai..
i go ask her whether nid any help..
she jus silence..
mayb she was too suffer of gasping 4 air..
so i went to find de supervisor 4 help..
manatahu..
i cant find de ah you..
so i jus called de ah yong..
lol..
v serious lo..
de girl...
cant even stand up den..
haiz..
luckily i dun hav asthma..
so suffer..
after all..
we continue work..
den de ah you bac..
he perli us y dun help..
hey..
i got try to help ok??
lol..
continue ironing..
n den yc tiok told de supervisor tat we wan resign..
n de stupid cb din go..
n cb lost de punch card..
n yc kena bullets..
luckily not me speak..
haha..
n yesterday luckily not v much work..
v fast tiok finish our works..
no ck..
i wonder y sudden de ppl ironing so smart d..
haha..
den me n yc tiok ask de in ni po whether nid any help 4 ironing..
start do others ppl job..
den yc come my side n hide under de table rest..
i oso hide inside..
manatahu jus sit..
de supervisor tiok come liao..
ask we two no work liao meh??
xia sui lo..
den he order us arrange bac de 'pok'..
haha..
luckily not bein scold..
when bac..
pity de boy beside me lor..
he ot..
n suddenly a basket of ck things came out..
he hed to did it al alone..
his name is zhi wei..
when i 1st heard his name..
i wan to laugh..
but i got 廉耻的so i din laugh..
it sounds like..自慰。。
wakakaka!!
sui lo me..
he quite nice ppl..
jus a bit shy..
n got some发音怪怪。。
good luck to him la..
n oso us..
hehe..
happy not working..

没做工的日子。。

其实真的很想一直读下去。。
做工真的很累。。
这几天,
真的是。。
不懂形容。。
像丧尸一样。。
漫无目的地废着。。
真的很怀念学校。。
怡锦的笑声、
仪莹的放肆。。
笨笨的‘卡到肉’。。
很逗人的班长lao chik..
迷人的一家。。
5s1之家。。
解散了。。
我这辈子都会记得这一个中学回忆。。

Sunday, January 3, 2010

朋友

我,
原来。。
忽略了朋友。。
是我习惯了理所当然。。
还是怎么了?
习惯。。
不再转发信息祝福给我可爱的朋友。。
每日,
只懂陶醉在爱情中。。
身边朋友怎么了,
我也变得些些不在乎。。
觉得自己很可恶。。
诗敏,美雪,仪莹,翊卿,舒婷,俊益。。
真的很对不起。。
曾经,我答应会好好珍惜我们的友谊。。
但我办不到。。
真的。。很难过很抱歉。。
原谅我吧!
爱情已占据了我的灵魂。。
空壳的我。。
自私得不再人情味。。

Friday, January 1, 2010

...



today's mood: badly..

很努力地压抑。。
很久没因心情糟而哭了。。
是变得不在乎还是习惯了?
是我最近太多虑了吗?
我真的很累。。
不知道为什么。。
希望。。
快点知道答案。。
去还是存?
我不想再闷下去了。。
疯。。