156days

i had been a form6 student for 156days..
finally, i succeeded to make myself suit to my study environment..
i stopped myself from digging bigger hole for my grave..
don worry.. i would be fine as all i would..
concentrate on your studies and socialisation among your friend..
i promised..
i would not bring any childish case for you anymore..
i would stand stiff on my own..

yesterday..
i was so unhappy..
because someone made me insaned..
i thought you would comfort me..
but you shown me that..
it doesn't really big deal and i was so immatured..
felt hurt a bit..
so i wrote a letter for you..
all my sadness and feelings are written on paper..
no one knows except me..
then i tore them into pieces..
it was a way to release my tension..
at least..
i felt i was 'shared' with you..
it seemed dumb.. haha..
but effective..
i thought of why you neglected my needs..
i saw a post from facebook..
'如果我的回复只是‘噢’和一些简单的回答，请原谅我，我只是不同意你的想法，不愿惹气更多的不悦。。’
i was not sure of what you went through yesterday..
but i guessed you felt me immatured and i should have ability to pacified myself..
and yes i did..
or maybe you were busy, or you were in moody too..
anything..
but it did not important anymore..
i would conceal and control my emotion..
i should face my problems myself..
i would grown up.. just gave me some time..
occasionally, i would blame you..
but think wisely.. i was the faulty..
haha..
so jia you!!
saw mey don emo!!