i wanted to share

i want to tell you that..
my average cocurriculum got 80.5marks..
i was so happy..
i wanted to share with you the most..
although you got higher marks then mine during your secondary,
i felt wanted to share with you..
actually..
occasionally, i would take offense when you leave comments for others..
i was not the one you felt wanted to share of your life..
eventhough you were not purposely.. i felt miserable..
in facebook..
i seems like never connected to you..
you used to it..
sometimes,
i envied some couples..
whenever they posted somethings..
they'll soothe each other on time..
basically.. you hated to do so..
i was not the type of girl you expected to be in love..
i was not pretty..
not sweet,
blunt to take initiative..
fat..
not friendly..
vulnerable..
a non-christian..
a coward..
weird styling.. no personality..
not confidented..
strong jealousy..
under-performing academic, relationship, and physical condition..
not attractive, pessimism..
not romantic girl.............................
nothing branded good on me...
i knew..
you cant find a virtue on me..
but you were 99% opposite of me..
inferiory flooded every cell of mine..
i hoped i could do something..
for myself.. to make my family and you proud..
sorry~