My New Experience

Honestly, being fitted in USM gives me some pressure. Perhaps, I used to spend my life alone without feeling any awkwardness. Now I am situated in a new environment, watching my close friend mixing well with the others, while I always keep on distance. Sometimes, I feel like a looser, but at last I tell myself, I have my own thought, I can't just follow what others always think of. everyone will never be the same. I don't have to force myself to be something I feel uncomfortable with. At least I can work and socialize with others, i'm not a weirdo.

Recently, actually it is not suitable to named it as recently. Umm.. Maybe for the past few months? I have been chatting with a guy from wechat. His name is Jason, 25yrs old. We keep connected by only texting but not showing any voice nor photos. We can talk anything and can reply anytime we want and never blame or sorry for any late replies. I never see his face from album and i thought he may look fat and clumsy. Then we finally dated each other for a dinner.

I was damn shocked when i first met him in front of the gsc cinema. He wasn't tall but he was good looking. Perhaps, I like sporty thin guys. He was a sport lover, he looked totally out of my imagination. He used to talk gently and like to observe people's personalities. Our first dinner was in Sushi Tei. Imagine. I was dined with a stranger I had never met before. I felt like went for some ancient blind date. Just kidding. He gave me good impression. He paid the bill around RM90 for the dinner. Hmm.. Generous? I just enjoyed the date. A special friend who I knew this way.

Now we are still in contact. I like the way we connected. I can tell him my thoughts and never expect him to answer as what my close friends do. We don't even have each others' Facebook. We never say thing crossing over the line. He is a very innocent guy even he is 4yrs older than me, but yet he is matured in thinking. We never discuss relationship topics, but just being all-talk friend. Super comfortable. Hard to find someone like this. This Sunday we are going to watch 'The Flu'. Anticipate for the day :)
Long live 'stranger friend' like this. haha :)

New Updates on My University Life

It has been almost a month I was entitled as an USM student. Seriously, being an APEX student is different. People don't like to make comparison, but I do, always. There are definitely many things different from UMS. First to mention is the scale of the universities. USM has spent or I might call invest a huge modals in sustaining the honorary of being qualified as the first and the only APEX university in Malaysia. Not going on so details, but I have lost inside campus for a couple of times. I have to imagine a way to reach a destination. Unlike in UMS, the buildings are clearly stated and not confusing. To reach a destination, a bus can bring us all over the places in UMS. However, the best thing about USM is the bus service. it is more punctual and systematic.

The second to mention is about the convenience of getting products and services. Least to mention about the bustling in Penang, shopping complexes and grocery shops are easy to reach. Inside campus of USM, they provided chances for their students to start business. Most of the stalls and printing services are handled by USM students. That is what makes USM different from just producing graduates. Facilities in both hostel and public places are really conducive for the students to carry out daily life and studies. Especially the library. I used to stay at the library to complete my assignments as the computers and internets are provided. Oh ya, not to forget about the wifi. USM has the greatest wifi service. I guess. We have internet connection wherever in our campus and hostels. It is very wonderful and convenient for us.

So, I stop it here first, to be continue next time when i'm free from assignments :) Glad to be here :D

有一点长但有意思

(1)學會沉默
有時候，不是所有的人都得了解你，因此你不必對全世界喊話。畢竟不是所有的是非都能條列清楚，甚至可能根本沒有真正的是與非。那麼，不想說話，就不說吧，在多說無益的時候，也許沉默就是最好的解釋。

(2)至少平靜 　　
在你跌入人生谷底的時候，你身旁所有的人都告訴你：要堅強，而且要快樂。堅強是絕對需要的，但是快樂? 畢竟，誰能在跌得頭破血流的時候還覺得高興？但是至少可以做到平靜。平靜地看待這件事，平靜地把其他該處理的事處理好。平靜，沒有快樂，也沒有不快樂。
 　　
(3)學會彎腰 這會是我意外的收獲 　　
和別人發生意見上的紛歧，甚造成言語上的衝突，所以悶悶不樂。別再耿耿於懷了，回家去擦地板吧。拎一塊抹布，彎下腰，雙膝著地，把你面前這張地板的每個角落來回擦拭干淨。然後重新省思自己在那場衝突，所說過的每一句話。有時候你必須學習彎腰，因為這個動作可以讓你謙卑。勞動身體的同時，你也擦亮了自己的心緒。

(4)不要想 如果 當初 　　
你說，人生是一條有無限多岔口的長路，永遠在不停地做選擇。如果只是選擇吃炒面或炒飯，影響似乎不大，但選擇讀什麼科系、做什麼工作、結婚或不結婚、要不要有孩子，每一個選擇都影響深遠，而不同的選擇也必定造就完全不一樣的人生。你又說，生命中不可承受之情，就在於人生沒有重來的機會啊。如果當初如何如何，現在就不會怎樣怎樣…這種充滿悵然的喃喃自語，還是別再多說了吧。每一個岔口的選擇其實沒有真正的好與壞，只要把人生看成是自己。獨一無二的創作，就不會頻頻回首如果當初做了不一樣的選擇。
　　
(5)努力吧 不管成功與否 至少曾經美麗 　　
漫步林間，你看見一株藤蔓附著樹干，柔軟與堅實相互交纏，你感動於這靜美的一幕。讓幸福與歸屬就此駐足吧。你想。不知未來會有怎樣一番風雨摧折？也許藤將斷、樹會倒，也許天會荒，地將老。你又想。那麼，請時光停格在此刻吧。停格即是永恆。永恆裡若有這靜美的一刻，未來可能遭遇的種種劫難，便已得到了安慰與報償。 

(6)保持單純 　　
因為思慮過多，所以你常常把你的人生復雜化了。明明是活在現在，你卻總是念念不忘著過去，又憂心忡忡著未來；堅持攜帶著過去、未來與現在同行，你的人生當然只有一片拖泥帶水。單純地活在當下,而當下其實無所謂是非真假。既然沒有是非，就不必思慮；沒有真假，就無須念念不忘又憂心忡忡。無是非真假，就單純地把你的人生當成夢境去執行吧。 　　

(7)偶爾’俗氣’　　
人生不需要把自己綁得那麼緊。偶爾的小小放縱，是道德的。靈氣充滿或許接近大人，但偶爾的俗氣會更平易近人。 

(8)控制情緒 　　
今天的你，是不開心的你，因為有人在言語間刺傷了你。你不喜歡吵架，所以你離開；可是你只是離開了那，卻沒有離開被那人傷害的情境，因此你愈想愈生氣。愈有氣，你就愈沒有力氣去理會別的事情，許多更該用心去做去想去處理的事件，就在你漫天漫地的心煩意亂之中，被輕忽被漠視被省略了。因為，你只是一心一意地在生氣。在情緒上做文章，這是對自己的浪費，而且是很壞的浪費。別讓情緒控制了你。
 　　
(9)抓住最好的時機 絕不錯過 　　
你曾經買了一件很喜歡的衣裳卻舍不得穿，鄭重地供奉在衣櫃裡；許久之後，當你再看見它的時候，卻發現它已經過時了。所以，你就這樣與它錯過了。沒有在最喜歡的時候上身的衣裳，沒有在最可口的時候品嘗的蛋糕，就像沒有在最想做的時候去做的事情，都是遺憾。生命也有保存期限，想做的事該趁早去做。如果你只是把你的心願鄭重地供奉在心裡，卻未曾去實行，那麼唯一的結果，就是與它錯過。 

(10)偶爾的出離軌道 　　
某次你搭火車打算到A地去，中途卻忽然臨時起意在B地下了車。也許是別致的地名吸引了你，也許是偶然一瞥的風景觸動了你，總之，你就這樣改變了本來預定的行程，然後經歷了一場充滿驚奇的意外旅行。回憶起來，你說，那是一次令你難忘的出軌經驗。生命中的許多時候不也如此？心無旁騖地奔赴唯一的目的，不過是履行了原本的行程而已；離開預設的軌道，你才有機會發現其他的風景。 　　

(11)悄悄 悄悄地 回歸平靜.. 　　
曾經有一段時間，你心情低落，甚至懶得拉開窗簾，看著窗外的陽光。因此你當然也忘了去看看，窗台上那一盆每天都需要喝水的瑪格麗特。如此不知過了多久，總算有一天，你度過了心情的低潮，同時也想起了你的瑪格麗特。天啊，可憐的花，她還活著嗎？你戰戰兢兢地拉開窗簾，卻見她迎風招搖，花顏可掬。原來在過去的這段日子裡，你雖然忘了喂她喝水，老天卻沒忘了以雨露眷顧她呢。許多事物悄悄地在你的視線之外進行，而且悄悄地安排好了它們自己。天生萬物，天養萬物，一切其實無須擔心……你只要做的就是做好自己，不留任何遺憾…足矣。