被打碎的梦

i got my upu result and it is so disappointing. i have been entitled to ums's environmental sc. i am thinking how can i take a course that those ppl with cgpa 3.0 r qualified to study? i was so sad and disappointed.is that a punishment for me? i thought i deserve mire. i thought of going mahsa pharmacy with polly and yi ching, but my family could not afford the huge expenses nd fees that i needed. finally, i had to choose to go ums.. what i hope is.. i could change to take industrial chem. which my friend had taken. how sad i am now.. u wont understand the disappointment that i went through. my brother begs me to understand our current financial situation, and i get it and i give up my dreams. 我情愿我可以很任性，不顾他们 哭着求他们让我去追梦。但我已经不是小孩了，我有很多的顾虑，很多的害怕是我无法承受的。所以，我放弃了我的志愿。好几次我都想哭但我都忍了起来。哭已经不是我的性格了。坚强，独立才是我该有的改变。我没有可以依靠的海岸让我更清楚现实也是一种生活。我会利用我大学的时间好好享受快乐。管他有没有男生给我暗恋，我只想快乐，无忧。我妈说抱歉因为真的没有办法，她说我要什么她都会给，只是这个真的没办法。我不是一个有坚持毅力的人。我只会越来越坚强。谢谢伤害过我的人，因为你们，我才更有勇气走下去。告诉我自己，我不会比我爸妈更快归西。我是小草，逆来顺受，但绝对不会轻易折断。 你可以说我是个不敢梦的可悲人，但我不想让我的家人用苦恼来换取我的梦。我真的不敢有这一种梦。 其实，刚刚在工作哪儿有个uncle跟我搭讪。每次都找我聊，说很想保护我。我今天才知道他驾camry,满富有的。他想给我电话，跟我聊天。其实有那么一瞬间我想他当sugar daddy.但我当然拒绝了。我很保守的。幸好我没乱来。好了，发泄完了。我还有两个星期多就可以开始准备上沙巴大学了。加油吧!素媚 :)