我的恐惧

距离上大学的日子只剩下十四天了，心中难免有些矛盾，不知新生活会是什么样子。 我很难过，因为我即将离开，离开我的家，我的故乡，我的家人和朋友，还有我的回忆到陌生的地方开始我的人生。 我曾经的兴奋与期待已被恐惧淹没，心跳频率早不正常了。 我害怕收拾我的行李，我怕我要离开。 其实要离开槟城的人不止我而已，还有一些朋友即将到外国深造，好几年都得待在那儿。我，算什么？ 从小我没有离开过家人的庇护，我没有真正地独立过。 这会是我最大的考验，最好的成长锻炼，我只有撑过去。 今天，我终于加入安利团队了！ 我不敢确定我在这一行一定能闯出我的一片天，但至少我有这一个机会。 上天安排了这一条路给我，我相信，一定有它的原因。 我改变不了我的环境，我得改变我的心态。 挫折没什么打大不了的，只要我能接受，一定行得通的！ 素媚，别害怕，你是个被祝福的孩子，一定可以的！加油！

unexpected outing

i had ended my job in senyum mart on 31st july. so i asked my supervisor ah chye uncle and bee eng jie to have a meeting. we had high tea at chaistime and dinner at o2 leaf with wei leong. my unexpected outing was happened in the middle of getting lunch and dinner with them. i went out chatting with a friend together at jelutong busstop. he guided me to the bus stop and got in the 303 bus after some chat. i felt so familiar with this action. this was how i alwsys did with my friends when i was in form5. he paid for the bus ticket and we were heading to perangin. i felt safe :) and excited. we had window shopping and talking non stop. I found out that we had a lot of common interest. I like the atmosphere with him. I enjoyed walking beside him and stood in front of him when the bus were shaking. Maybe that he was tall and wide broader shoulder. He looked protective. It might be a short term illumination I got attracted by him for somehow... It had been so long that I did not get interested with a man. He was after him. I knew that I was just too lonely. And we were impossible to improve. Just wan u to know that you were a nice guy :) I don't know what u felt today, I was having a great happy day. I hope that u feel so. Thanks for walking beside me but not front of me. Accompanying me to shop and home. I felt chemically attracted. All the best and good luck to you. Thanks for ttreating like a good friend :) I will remember today :) even though u might just treat me like normal female friend.. Haha.. Have a nice day :)