facebook

login facebook has became one of the daily routine for the people nowadays. i used to be addicted to facebook, especially updating status. however, since i stepped on usm life, is became more concern of on the intention i give to others through status updates. it is very important to not spread out too much negative thoughts. i am learning to send out positive minds and encouraging myself to be more mature in sharing news. never post too much privacy in facebook, there is too much strangers and competitors to see how you fool your life. sometimes, i feel myself are getting lost and i have no place to lean on. facebook has to be forgotten as a place to release emotion. i wish someone do really talk in person with me instead f telling the whole world that im in trouble. i really want to hold your hand but im so scared to be hurt again. it doesnt feel the same like before, having puppy love but it feels like to be long term relationship. im not ready and yet i dont want to miss you. i want to try. listen to me and not to know me from facebook. it is all i want now.

indecisive

Well, I seldom share my personal update to friends recently. So it is better for me to write them here as some of my friends will look up from here. This mid sem break, I get my full rest and did nothing great seriously. haha. I went to Ipoh and stay a night at her house. I was seriously fond to observe her gor gor. I had never met such a big fat dog in my life. Moreover, it was an stray dog before my friend's family adopted it.
Ok, let's begin with my main point. I had been hanging out frequently with Jason in these few weeks. This included lunch, dinner, supper and movie. I didn't have a proper reason to explain my action. I just did what my heart told me to. I thought he would never start up the topic, but it happened yesterday. I accompanied him to shop in Tesco. After that, he helped me to install Microsoft to my laptop in his car. He hold my hand suddenly and asked me whether want to take care of him. I went blanked and couldn't react. I replied 'no' with laughter. He let off my hand and continued with the installation. The second time was when he suddenly interlocking our fingers and asked me to become his girlfriend. Frankly, I was vacillated, I couldn't reject nor accept. It had been too fast for me but yet he was nice for me. So i replied to give me some times and we remained the same.
i'm sure my friends will think what i've done are absurdity, i feel the same too honestly, I will just give myself some time to understand more about him. never be too impetuous even i'm hesitated. Wish me all the best :)