Y??

why am i so mahuan...
hate it...
dun like it...
why i oways bein scolded??
hate my life bein like tat...
i tried to be more independent...
but why i can't achieve it yet
although i had try hard...
why can't they understand mii??
i scare of ppl using loud voice to talk wif mii...
i'm lack of protect frm outsiders...
why can't u use proper volume...i'm scared...
yesterday...
my bag was cut by ppl using knife in pasar malam...
i'm still affraid of tat...
i can't tell any1...
coz i dun wan my family think tat i'm so troublesomes....
i wan cry...
but i noe it won make me better...
i hate to be treated like a little girl...
i hate ppl tat look down on me...especially my family....
i nid a thight hug now...
but who can giv me??

tis life is oways bein like tat...
no one really understands who...including u n me...
so we nid to face evrything by ourselves...
n maybe something i'm trying to speak it out
but no one wan to hear abt it...
sometimes,
i felt disappointed abt my family members...
but wat can i do??
they oways think tat i oni noe hw to spend their money nia...
they think tat i'm v materialistic...
but i'm not like tat...
i had been change a lot since last yr...
but they din realize it...
n tat's really hurts me...
i now felt v stress when asking somthing frm them...
i really hopes tat 1 day i could really become a mad person...mentally problem...
den i no nid to think so much adi...
i feel so lonely...but no one can help me...
i hav many frens but not evry1 i can tell them wat i feel....
i feel so fuzzy...
goin to crazy...
but they din even noe oso...(my family)
i'm still crying when typing these words...
wat can i do...tis is fate...
i couldn't change it...
i feel anoying to continue my life wif my parents n siblings...
i'm selfish...
maybe somday...
i would fing som1 to scold me till my tears out...
den i'll feel release...