i'm bad..

i don't know why i would treat someone like this. i am kind of stubborn and aggressive whenever facing a trouble like this. honestly, i hate it too. i have isolate and shun you from entering my world. i understand that no one is perfect in this world, however i find that it is hard for me to pretend. i could be hypocritical expert, but i couldn't avoid the feelings which pop up unintentionally. i tend to be friend and hang out with you, but it fails.

i thought of telling why i am shutting you down, but it is hard for me to speak out. firstly, please speak out what you need. i am not the worm in your stomach, thus i won't always get to know what you need. secondly, although you could ask for my help, sometimes just not to be too over my limits. for example, i'm not a 24hrs transport officer. if you need transport from other please inform the person by yourself, not through me. i'm not ought to be your subordinate. third, please show some grateful and maybe a bit of thankful whenever i lend you a hand. because people are the same. we may like some appreciation after a help. it may not to be a great appreciation, but at least.. let me hear the word 'thanks'..

i know you work hard and pretend hard in guard in friendship. but it doesn't work in that way. it may scare us and hurt yourself even deeper. i am a bad person. i could not make up a promise like yc does for you. what i could say is just be stronger and take care. i'm sorry for hurting you. just let me be the selfish one. leave me, you'll be better and happier.