not in mood

im going to have my first mid term exam in ums today, but i give up. i don't even want to fight for it at the last minutte. i wish that i will never here. all my hardwork in my form 6 is only deserved rm90. i don't know why i got so upset. Especiay Mei Xue ignored me sometimes. Perhaps i am too moody today, i feel pur distance.

Return to the SIMPLE

Well, first of all, i am here to reannounce my status. 

I am single yet I survive! Haha :)

At least no one could agitate me by easily,

I can pretend to be calm and cool. Haha! xD

Secondly, do you realise that my blog's template becomes so kiddy??

Yes! I purposely make it to something simple but symbolises things usually in my mind.

Childhood. Yeah~

Even I don't have a wonderful one, I have my lovely memories staying beside my mom :D

Actually, I skipped a chance to apply jpa scholarship which i had a high probability to get it.

Everything just caused by my laziness and procrastination.

And now,

I deserved the punishment.

No one reprimanded me, yet i felt myself not aggressive to chase for what i worth. 

However, 

time had passed, 

no way return, so i just had to rebuild my mind and be grateful again.

Pace forward, not to cry over the same thing and never do the same mistake again!

SMILE=D  

Today I went out with my Titas group members to Emmanual Church,

it was all basically to do my assignment.

The church was well-equiped with modern electrical goods and musical instruments,

which i found it fresh for me,

because there was no Jesus the Christ statue or something i used to imagine for ancient church.

Haha..

Well, at least, I had learnt something, 

church meant people.

We sang a lot of christianity songs and shaked a lot of people's hand.

It did remind me of 'Multi-level Marketing' meetings in either Amway or Great Eastern. Haha.

At first, I was so reluctant to their passion and to follow what they did. 

ps: like lifting hands to reach the God and say the words "it is you Jesus" or "i love you Lord"

Perhaps i was used to buddhism and i believe in the taught of Buddha, I was not enough liberal yet. :(

Anyway, it was a nice try. 

They created a place which gather all the genius and passionate people.

The spirits were there with them always. :)

So back to the mission--

We interviewed one of the pastor and he answered to us with informative points.

I guess we really did a good job today. :)

We video cam during the session and we might look nervous and blank in the middle.

But we succeeded, well done for us already.

After that, we went to restaurant 527 near King Fisher there to lunch.

Not bad :D

Well, I hope i look cheerful for my friends over Sabah. I want to build up a new image for myself.

and i do always able to keep my emotion coaxed here :)

i have changed a lot and i am happier now even i get down by the assignments here :) haha..

But i only believe, my grandpa and grandma will bless for me far away from me.

and there is nothing should get me down :) i will love and enjoy what i have here.

Move forward, i will find my happiness there, throughout the journey.

Yeah~~

Saw Mey, a girl living in netherland :)

Finally i know how it feels

Last time, i used to be insecured. So i liked to text my ex and get stuck on him. Perhaps inmature was the reason i acted so. On the first 3months he went to KL, i was so afraid of losing him so i requested to stay connected through texting with him. I never viewed from his position. When we get to a new environment, everything got terrible . What was i minded that time were all why he did not put me as ultimately important? Now i was in a new environment, i knew the difficulty he faced before and i was not his best listener. No one could help him because he was alone. He pretende to be fine and escaped from all my curiosity towards him. Now i was here, sabah. A place that my family and close friends never reached here for me. I had to get my stuff ready and meals settled on my own. No transport and backup. Sometimes, i would feel helpless, because everyone was busy, seldom had time to entertain me :(. I did not havr boyfriend to care for what food i had for my lunch or dinner, who made ne angry or sad today. Luckily, my friends called me when she missed me and shared her situation with me. My family supported me and loved me like treasure.. I was lucky and i think boyfriend cpuld be not a part of my university life. I would survive! Yeah! less than 100days already xD Kah yao!!

Do you know

Do you know why I seldom close the texting conversation? Or why I prefer to ignore your messages? Because of a simple reason.. I dont wish to be ignored or waiting for a person to reply. I hate to wait because it hurts me a lot :( So i rather to be the cooler one :).