there is no wrong for being yourself

i have friends that are charming and attrast boys after them. I am one of not their same zone. I am a typical tradition girl who always stay on my own position. I don't fight for take initiative over a guy. I can ne said shy or inattractive. Anyway, i don't feel like to someone that not really me. i cant simply fb or sms a boy for fun. im jut not born to have that talent or interest. i love how im looked and how im being right npw. maybe it's hard for you to see that im shinning. i font care! even you say that i look like a vase, well, it is still me,special. i will not harden or totally change myself to others just to attract guys.. i want a boy that know that i can take care well of him and he loves me and willing to protect me and appreciate me till we die. i just need one. now, im searching for that guy, i hope you find me soon. :)

my starting in sabah

everytime when i looked at my friends' blogs, some ideas would just pass by my mind. i should attach more info and photos inside my blog. but then when i felt like to blog, i lost the mood to pick photos from my handphone. by that time i just told myself, 'hey, why not take it easy, it's just a space where i express all my feelings.' even now, i won't have the typical mood to change my layout or upload any photo. maybe, this is me. i do not need other to spot on my life through a website. just give me a call or sms me, i gurantee, i will reply you as soon as i can. not like last time :) now i love cht-chating. it makes my world filled with love and warmness :) and yea~ i was so surprised that i did my ptptn application before 15th of august. i just thought i missed the first batch. and now i was approved, i was just waiting for money to come~ hahahaha~ love it! although i was quite quiet in my room, my room mates were all so lovely. and for sure my room was a satu malaysia room. one chinese, sabahan, selangor malay and a murut chinese mix. the latter was so pretty but i found her loved to do things at the eleventh hour. i got my ptptn approved today while she was just applying==. and she was complaining to sleep. cool yea? my house was nicely decorated by the malays. you know, sometimes chinese are just too ego. we always thought that they were dirty and lazy, but now.. i felt shame on us. they had cleaned the toilet and shopped for sharing items themself. they shared with us and not asking for what. i was glad to be in this room. although it was hot andfull of mosquito. actually, i was admiring someone recently. he was not very handsome, not tall, not really great in academic but he was kind and nice. i was attracted to his personalities. though i knew his care was mainly because that his friends asked to, i like him :) he treated everyone of us so nice and heartful, i would never met someone like him. i knew, he would be a very nice guy.. a protective man :) so i just having secret admiration toward him. never let him to know. i just wan to make friend with him :) good luck ya! good boy.. hehe.. hope you wont know till the end of sabah days :)girls.. keep secret for me ha..:) haha.. take care everyone~ i'm amanda<3

any thing

today was free. we just had to choose our courses and register online. i finished it as fast as i could. i had registerd for spanish class. my ordinary plan iwas japanese, but i did not fit in the quota. quite sad for that. anyway, everything went smooth and i had a nice day. :) i chose lawan pedang for my kokum. i hoped that it wont disappoint me as i just could make a choice. :) beginning from now. i will try not to write out the sad part or incident happened on me.. emotionally :l) be happy n sweet :) actually, i like how u being right now. everything is simple and happy go lucky. it is nice to be ur friend :) i never realize that. i appreciate on all the helps u gave to us. finally, thanks tiara too :) i will try to become more hyperactive :) all the best to myself. i dont really think that i can find a bf here. maybe i was having skintone discrimination or technically speaking skil problem.. i preffer semenanjung guy. sometimes. i will envy those who is having boyf. at least, a call give 安全感。 when can i meet u? :) hope u appear soon..

short short report

i was having my biggest turning point of my 20yrs.. i had registered for university malaysia sabah, and now, i was a real mahasiswa already. first to talk abt the hostel.. hot n dirty.. i was lucky, because i had chose the most nice 2in1 study desk. i had hard days in sabah and i went through it day by day :) we had to compete for the bus ride, wash our own clothes and face the unexpectable incidents. i think i was bravo :) quite tired to write out al the things happened within these few days. wait i finish my orientation week first :) i started to acknowledge of a boy.. had a little crush on her :) i hope u wont mind, im just respecting and admire you :) btw, all the best to us.. all my friends and i., i love you!