facebook

login facebook has became one of the daily routine for the people nowadays. i used to be addicted to facebook, especially updating status. however, since i stepped on usm life, is became more concern of on the intention i give to others through status updates. it is very important to not spread out too much negative thoughts. i am learning to send out positive minds and encouraging myself to be more mature in sharing news. never post too much privacy in facebook, there is too much strangers and competitors to see how you fool your life. sometimes, i feel myself are getting lost and i have no place to lean on. facebook has to be forgotten as a place to release emotion. i wish someone do really talk in person with me instead f telling the whole world that im in trouble. i really want to hold your hand but im so scared to be hurt again. it doesnt feel the same like before, having puppy love but it feels like to be long term relationship. im not ready and yet i dont want to miss you. i want to try. listen to me and not to know me from facebook. it is all i want now.

indecisive

Well, I seldom share my personal update to friends recently. So it is better for me to write them here as some of my friends will look up from here. This mid sem break, I get my full rest and did nothing great seriously. haha. I went to Ipoh and stay a night at her house. I was seriously fond to observe her gor gor. I had never met such a big fat dog in my life. Moreover, it was an stray dog before my friend's family adopted it.
Ok, let's begin with my main point. I had been hanging out frequently with Jason in these few weeks. This included lunch, dinner, supper and movie. I didn't have a proper reason to explain my action. I just did what my heart told me to. I thought he would never start up the topic, but it happened yesterday. I accompanied him to shop in Tesco. After that, he helped me to install Microsoft to my laptop in his car. He hold my hand suddenly and asked me whether want to take care of him. I went blanked and couldn't react. I replied 'no' with laughter. He let off my hand and continued with the installation. The second time was when he suddenly interlocking our fingers and asked me to become his girlfriend. Frankly, I was vacillated, I couldn't reject nor accept. It had been too fast for me but yet he was nice for me. So i replied to give me some times and we remained the same.
i'm sure my friends will think what i've done are absurdity, i feel the same too honestly, I will just give myself some time to understand more about him. never be too impetuous even i'm hesitated. Wish me all the best :)

My New Experience

Honestly, being fitted in USM gives me some pressure. Perhaps, I used to spend my life alone without feeling any awkwardness. Now I am situated in a new environment, watching my close friend mixing well with the others, while I always keep on distance. Sometimes, I feel like a looser, but at last I tell myself, I have my own thought, I can't just follow what others always think of. everyone will never be the same. I don't have to force myself to be something I feel uncomfortable with. At least I can work and socialize with others, i'm not a weirdo.

Recently, actually it is not suitable to named it as recently. Umm.. Maybe for the past few months? I have been chatting with a guy from wechat. His name is Jason, 25yrs old. We keep connected by only texting but not showing any voice nor photos. We can talk anything and can reply anytime we want and never blame or sorry for any late replies. I never see his face from album and i thought he may look fat and clumsy. Then we finally dated each other for a dinner.

I was damn shocked when i first met him in front of the gsc cinema. He wasn't tall but he was good looking. Perhaps, I like sporty thin guys. He was a sport lover, he looked totally out of my imagination. He used to talk gently and like to observe people's personalities. Our first dinner was in Sushi Tei. Imagine. I was dined with a stranger I had never met before. I felt like went for some ancient blind date. Just kidding. He gave me good impression. He paid the bill around RM90 for the dinner. Hmm.. Generous? I just enjoyed the date. A special friend who I knew this way.

Now we are still in contact. I like the way we connected. I can tell him my thoughts and never expect him to answer as what my close friends do. We don't even have each others' Facebook. We never say thing crossing over the line. He is a very innocent guy even he is 4yrs older than me, but yet he is matured in thinking. We never discuss relationship topics, but just being all-talk friend. Super comfortable. Hard to find someone like this. This Sunday we are going to watch 'The Flu'. Anticipate for the day :)
Long live 'stranger friend' like this. haha :)

New Updates on My University Life

It has been almost a month I was entitled as an USM student. Seriously, being an APEX student is different. People don't like to make comparison, but I do, always. There are definitely many things different from UMS. First to mention is the scale of the universities. USM has spent or I might call invest a huge modals in sustaining the honorary of being qualified as the first and the only APEX university in Malaysia. Not going on so details, but I have lost inside campus for a couple of times. I have to imagine a way to reach a destination. Unlike in UMS, the buildings are clearly stated and not confusing. To reach a destination, a bus can bring us all over the places in UMS. However, the best thing about USM is the bus service. it is more punctual and systematic.

The second to mention is about the convenience of getting products and services. Least to mention about the bustling in Penang, shopping complexes and grocery shops are easy to reach. Inside campus of USM, they provided chances for their students to start business. Most of the stalls and printing services are handled by USM students. That is what makes USM different from just producing graduates. Facilities in both hostel and public places are really conducive for the students to carry out daily life and studies. Especially the library. I used to stay at the library to complete my assignments as the computers and internets are provided. Oh ya, not to forget about the wifi. USM has the greatest wifi service. I guess. We have internet connection wherever in our campus and hostels. It is very wonderful and convenient for us.

So, I stop it here first, to be continue next time when i'm free from assignments :) Glad to be here :D

有一点长但有意思

(1)學會沉默
有時候，不是所有的人都得了解你，因此你不必對全世界喊話。畢竟不是所有的是非都能條列清楚，甚至可能根本沒有真正的是與非。那麼，不想說話，就不說吧，在多說無益的時候，也許沉默就是最好的解釋。

(2)至少平靜 　　
在你跌入人生谷底的時候，你身旁所有的人都告訴你：要堅強，而且要快樂。堅強是絕對需要的，但是快樂? 畢竟，誰能在跌得頭破血流的時候還覺得高興？但是至少可以做到平靜。平靜地看待這件事，平靜地把其他該處理的事處理好。平靜，沒有快樂，也沒有不快樂。
 　　
(3)學會彎腰 這會是我意外的收獲 　　
和別人發生意見上的紛歧，甚造成言語上的衝突，所以悶悶不樂。別再耿耿於懷了，回家去擦地板吧。拎一塊抹布，彎下腰，雙膝著地，把你面前這張地板的每個角落來回擦拭干淨。然後重新省思自己在那場衝突，所說過的每一句話。有時候你必須學習彎腰，因為這個動作可以讓你謙卑。勞動身體的同時，你也擦亮了自己的心緒。

(4)不要想 如果 當初 　　
你說，人生是一條有無限多岔口的長路，永遠在不停地做選擇。如果只是選擇吃炒面或炒飯，影響似乎不大，但選擇讀什麼科系、做什麼工作、結婚或不結婚、要不要有孩子，每一個選擇都影響深遠，而不同的選擇也必定造就完全不一樣的人生。你又說，生命中不可承受之情，就在於人生沒有重來的機會啊。如果當初如何如何，現在就不會怎樣怎樣…這種充滿悵然的喃喃自語，還是別再多說了吧。每一個岔口的選擇其實沒有真正的好與壞，只要把人生看成是自己。獨一無二的創作，就不會頻頻回首如果當初做了不一樣的選擇。
　　
(5)努力吧 不管成功與否 至少曾經美麗 　　
漫步林間，你看見一株藤蔓附著樹干，柔軟與堅實相互交纏，你感動於這靜美的一幕。讓幸福與歸屬就此駐足吧。你想。不知未來會有怎樣一番風雨摧折？也許藤將斷、樹會倒，也許天會荒，地將老。你又想。那麼，請時光停格在此刻吧。停格即是永恆。永恆裡若有這靜美的一刻，未來可能遭遇的種種劫難，便已得到了安慰與報償。 

(6)保持單純 　　
因為思慮過多，所以你常常把你的人生復雜化了。明明是活在現在，你卻總是念念不忘著過去，又憂心忡忡著未來；堅持攜帶著過去、未來與現在同行，你的人生當然只有一片拖泥帶水。單純地活在當下,而當下其實無所謂是非真假。既然沒有是非，就不必思慮；沒有真假，就無須念念不忘又憂心忡忡。無是非真假，就單純地把你的人生當成夢境去執行吧。 　　

(7)偶爾’俗氣’　　
人生不需要把自己綁得那麼緊。偶爾的小小放縱，是道德的。靈氣充滿或許接近大人，但偶爾的俗氣會更平易近人。 

(8)控制情緒 　　
今天的你，是不開心的你，因為有人在言語間刺傷了你。你不喜歡吵架，所以你離開；可是你只是離開了那，卻沒有離開被那人傷害的情境，因此你愈想愈生氣。愈有氣，你就愈沒有力氣去理會別的事情，許多更該用心去做去想去處理的事件，就在你漫天漫地的心煩意亂之中，被輕忽被漠視被省略了。因為，你只是一心一意地在生氣。在情緒上做文章，這是對自己的浪費，而且是很壞的浪費。別讓情緒控制了你。
 　　
(9)抓住最好的時機 絕不錯過 　　
你曾經買了一件很喜歡的衣裳卻舍不得穿，鄭重地供奉在衣櫃裡；許久之後，當你再看見它的時候，卻發現它已經過時了。所以，你就這樣與它錯過了。沒有在最喜歡的時候上身的衣裳，沒有在最可口的時候品嘗的蛋糕，就像沒有在最想做的時候去做的事情，都是遺憾。生命也有保存期限，想做的事該趁早去做。如果你只是把你的心願鄭重地供奉在心裡，卻未曾去實行，那麼唯一的結果，就是與它錯過。 

(10)偶爾的出離軌道 　　
某次你搭火車打算到A地去，中途卻忽然臨時起意在B地下了車。也許是別致的地名吸引了你，也許是偶然一瞥的風景觸動了你，總之，你就這樣改變了本來預定的行程，然後經歷了一場充滿驚奇的意外旅行。回憶起來，你說，那是一次令你難忘的出軌經驗。生命中的許多時候不也如此？心無旁騖地奔赴唯一的目的，不過是履行了原本的行程而已；離開預設的軌道，你才有機會發現其他的風景。 　　

(11)悄悄 悄悄地 回歸平靜.. 　　
曾經有一段時間，你心情低落，甚至懶得拉開窗簾，看著窗外的陽光。因此你當然也忘了去看看，窗台上那一盆每天都需要喝水的瑪格麗特。如此不知過了多久，總算有一天，你度過了心情的低潮，同時也想起了你的瑪格麗特。天啊，可憐的花，她還活著嗎？你戰戰兢兢地拉開窗簾，卻見她迎風招搖，花顏可掬。原來在過去的這段日子裡，你雖然忘了喂她喝水，老天卻沒忘了以雨露眷顧她呢。許多事物悄悄地在你的視線之外進行，而且悄悄地安排好了它們自己。天生萬物，天養萬物，一切其實無須擔心……你只要做的就是做好自己，不留任何遺憾…足矣。

stay calm and smart

coming back to blog after a long time. i really think that like i never touch my blog for a decade. haha. well, to update my life, im currently undergoing trainning for insurance. great eastern life company. i have to attend night meeting on every monday. my favourite session of the meeting is speaking session. where i will be given chance tohold the microphone and speak out my idea. for the first time. i kept on mumbling and get blank. but the third time, i start to have idea on to give a opinion in front of public. the feelings is good. i like the stage even i am still a beginner level, i felt proud for myself. neither care for the results i would achieve, i would learn and transform a little bit. be brave and confident. hehe. kah yao o!

what to do before starting new life in USM

1. get invited to every facebook group which would involve me in future.
2. read through every posts by seniors and students.
3. alert with the important items, such as to prepare what documents, where and when to hand up.
4. call up for different offices and departments when needed.
5. terminate ptptn. (download and send letter to ptptn department)
6. download all documents online and print all of them without a miss.
7. write a suspension letter to my current university
8. fill and certify all the documents needed.
9. wait for school to open :D
10. go to kemasukan department to settle my unit transfer.
11. begin life as usual USM-er :D

vexed

I never thought life is easy, but I never know it can be that difficult for me to decide. After the working days, finally I get my rest time. I called to ptptn department and the officer told me that I had to terminate my ptptn before I can apply for the new university. I gasped and emptied-minded when I start to calculate the exact amount I had borrowed. It was not very huge but it was sufficient for me to be vexed. RM8,000. I wonder how I spent RM4,500 out of it. RM500 per month, what did I spend? I couldn't remember it.

I was greatly disappointed with our current government. Firstly, the price control. Second was the education system. It was a skin-based system. I was lucky because my dad worked for the government and I could get the offer easily. what was our sin to study in form 6? why can't we get what we deserve from our effort? Stop lying to our poor generation.

there are 2ways to choose. Either to clear the debt or just terminate it. (the aftermath is to be charged for 3% of the total owed every month, it is a big number, by means around RM300 annually) If I terminate the debt, I will need to pay the school fees plus the debt. Discussion with my parent will be brought on. I hope a better way will be figured out. God bless.

release from hatred

It is lucky for me to be awaken from the past. Not all things can be placed back at the beginning. Yeah, I have been looking at your timeline again. Reading through all the posts on your wall. Realising how both of you being so sweet. You are protecting well of her and I'm sure that your family do bless for your relationship. I see mature and yet sweet connection on both of you. Perhaps, I should greet you and tell you how much I am glad to see you being happy and be loved. However, it is better for me not to interrupt your life. It is fine for me if I can just watch you like that. :)

To be revived from the shade, I will try my best. Actually you will never be the reason for my failure to get a partner. I am not outgoing as well, that is the reason why. I will keep on looking on both of you and bless for you. Never consider of what the purpose, I feel finer to be like that. Forgiving. I may not appear in front of you purposely, However, my blessing will not be the less. :) All the best and stay sweet :)

Worrying about finding jobs. Think of going back to work at Senyum Mart. I just wonder they need me or not. Haha. If the retailer jobs spoiled, maybe I will get a call for Senyum Mart. :) The nearest and easiest job ever appear in Jelutong area. Good luck Saw Mey <3 p="">

Thanks for being my friend

I had spent a day in the most regretful way. Repented to reject my coursemates' invitation. They had came so far to Penang and hoped for a wonderful trip, but I gave them disappearance. I had no reason or even an excuse to explain my broken promise. I knew I would able to join them if I really wished to. In fact, I didn't understand the reason why. It seemed like I was repeating the same incident and I was a fail person from the beginning. A disappointing friend. Fond of disappointing people around me. I kept on avoiding things which happened the other way. How would I improve myself if I kept evading the things and people?

For once, Kim Liu asked me to top up my handphone. She said if I kept refusing to reload and replying people's messages, I would be hated by people. I pretended to ignore the sentences, but I knew it stroke my mind and I felt ashamed suddenly. The words used were not harsh but I was trying to reject and plead for myself. However, the alibi was not strong itself, then I used to avoid the topic again. I was clear with my pernicious habit, I knew, and I apologized to all of you. I couldn't face my problem easily. I was a damn ego lady, I could not put off my pride and accept the fact.

Occasionally, I was good in making friends. I gave cares and ears to listen and embrace my friends. In between, I forgot them, I did not know to protect and appreciate my friends. A half-hearted effort. There would be shame for me to be a friend. I knew. You had gave up on me. I could feel your tone, your glance and your gesture. I felt your frustration and disappointment. I would not beg for a return. Perhaps, I would compensate your sadness in surprise. I hoped it would not be late. Pray hard for it. Do it. Saw Mey, Don't make people sad. :(

good morning

it is a fine morning.. woke up and get ready to sushi bonanza with kim liu and wei jun :D

trying to act sexy.. but seems to fail.. haha.. anyway good morning :D

说好话

我是一 个佛教徒。佛教最基本的道就是因果。我自小就相信因果的存在，只是没有认真去探索。虽然如此，我却体验过即时的因果。就拿我平日的言行举止来说。我有一个爱说是非的坏德性，因此常常毫不择言地批评身边的朋友。我取笑我的朋友胖，结果我连续胖了12个年头。我说我朋友的眼袋大得像金鱼肚，结果我的眼袋长得比我的眼睛大。这是一种即时的业报。我还口不择言地讽嘲我朋友的身高，或许下辈子我会是个矮子。其实我是个能悟道理的人，但却不是个很好的执行者。惯性依旧，难以脱身。因此我立志：说好话，吐莲花，不说他人背后话，不损别人清白，做好自己，改造人生。
我是个高昂的女生，我不能忍受朋友在群人中损我。但相反地我却常常出口伤人，面子也不留地伤害身边的朋友。这就难怪没有多少朋友受得住我的脾性。我不希望成为朋友的茶后话题，所以我必须改变。我要大家都喜欢我，大家都愿意细心聆听我说话，所以我得改善口德。多说些让人开心的话，少说让人心烦的话。让人开心，我也开心。加油哦！ :)

I feel nervous

Anxiety has suffocated me. Honestly, I feel tension every time I am to plan a certain event. Last year Kundasang trip was my first try and I could not fit well with the situation. Now, I'm organising a trip for my parent and friends, I start to feel stress. Perhaps, I am afraid to bear responsibility on my own. I know I can do it but I always hesitate on my decision. For million times I try to convince myself that it will be an enjoyable vacation but still, I'm too dependent on my brother. I should be more mature in handling every occasion. I have pushed myself very hard. I wish I can be like Ah Jun them where they never show hesitation to others. I want to be decisive. I will be grown up. Kah yao!!!

忧郁的来源

这是我身为朋友的失败。我以为我会让你满意的，因为我是真心为你想的。或许我小气或许我真的一点小事都做不好。 我不希望我的真诚会换来不停的责备和埋怨。说真的，如果我真的不上心的事，我根本不会去理、更不会去花时间。我听到那些埋怨其实我的确满难过的。我不会再去为谁去做那些所谓的生日礼物或惊喜了。我没有那个本事也没有那种心思了，心灰了。面子书换上不是我的生日，希望大家也把我的生日忘了吧。既然我不干了就不会期望你们对我付出。再一次证明我的失败。站起来？不了。累死人了！

偶尔的寂寞

长大了，终于可以恋爱了，但是春天却不回来。朋友一个个开始恋爱，依赖，然后互相缠绵。我羡慕但是我无法改变。就因为偶尔的孤独、偶尔的伤心无法找到靠岸，我想恋爱。但是我不想爱得那么卑微随便，毕竟我不是年少轻狂了。最近看见前男友的消息，一家去了香港游玩。看着他，我突然很陌生。曾经他是我唯一的靠岸，也是我最亲密的人。如今，他换了电讯，也完全失联。很怀疑，自己真的跟他很熟悉过吗？

忙着忙着。。我把电话放在一旁，面子书一天上一趟。。我真的寂寞了。。我也希望能够有人陪我吃饭，上学。一起读书奋斗， 但是上哪儿找？我找得好累，是我把他设为底线了吗？还是我高估了他，一直把他设为假象目标。我该醒了吗？（ˇ＾ˇ）希望寂寞的感觉快点过去，其实单身也很有趣。加油哦！:D

anger in head

having some conflicts with my bff. i felt angry and sad. however, it was my attitude problem. i did not want to argue or say anything else. i prefer to maintaim silent. i am still in temper so i do not think it is a good time to express what is in my mind. people is liking your status, it makes me feel that it is uselesa for me to speak pf anything. People love you, nnot like me, always become indifferent. what i spoke became wrong. everytime in fromt of others. i felt small and discrete. sometimes i just hope that im born mute. so i wont say things wrong. im stubborn, i should learn to pick up critism.

我要你

我要你

牵着我的手

拉近你的鼻子

告诉我你就喜欢我

我要你

不嫌我有多无理取闹

吵架时不会让我一个人

我要你

让我靠

无论看戏的时候或

载着我的时候

感受我的陪伴

我要你

不时地将我投向你的怀抱

我累了

你就要抱着我

给我力量坚持

什么话都可以不说

你就是原因

我要你

不准忘记我们的点点滴滴

不准忘记我的生日

你可以不送什么

但是你要陪我渡过

我要你

愿意带我回家

认识你的家人、朋友

我要你能接受我在你家里自由进出

同样的

我要你

跟我回家

让我家人看看你

让你知道我家人当我是宝

所以你不会随手丢下我

我要你

吃饭时

夹菜给我

因为我也想学着剥虾给你吃

我要你

学会驾车

因为我喜欢在你驾车时偷偷亲你

我要你

假日陪我看海

因为我喜欢浪漫

你可以为我拨开散乱在我脸上的头发

轻巧地吻上我的额头

我要你

习惯给我打电话

不要打简讯

因为我喜欢你听我说话

你不可以嫌我烦

我要你

带我去旅行

单纯地过二人世界

晚上有你抱着我入睡

感觉你我的心跳

我要你

告诉我你全部的情史

让我瞧瞧我有什么比她好

我要你

只有我

不要骗我

我既然喜欢你了

我没有其他人了

我希望你也一样

爱我就这样

Illness

It was unfortunate to fall sick during holiday, especially the time that had been waited for so long. After getting through fever, now i'm facing problem with my lungs and throat. I am having heavy cough and chest pain while coughing. It is disgusting to see what I spitted from my mouth. greenny and yellowish mucus. I have been sleeping for hours by hours but the exhaustion never relief. For this instance, I wish I could sleep until the world end.

I think I am a big loser as I always can't find friends for transport when I need the most. Perhaps, I am shy? I  am not welcome by them? I believe the latter statement might be true. Stop this topic.

I am left with 2months or perhaps 67days to return to my hometown. I wish I could go back as soon as possible, at least, I can depend on my own transport at penang. homesick now...

fever

i wonder why i would be ill at this precious time.

Had been suffered on my bed for two days,

now I still feel my blood vessels dilated,

shivering in cold.

Fever.. just leave me forever,

my holiday spoiled because of you!

Eating 2paracetamol after each meal,

that is so unhealthy.

Please behave yourself,

I wanna taste Char Koay Tiew before I am off to Sabah again.

Now I just realise what is the importance of  having a boyfriend.

Transport service and forever company to anywhere I want.

Well,

finally agree to that boyfriend is important.

Haha..

but I don't have,

let's find a girlfriend.. xD

from <3 letitia="" mey="" p="" saw="">

A lazy day staying at home

Today is my mom's birthday,

but she is not with me in hometown.

She went to constellation event held in KL together with my brother.

What a waste that I was planning to celebrate her birthday but she was planning for the other.

Luckily, there is still Lunar date celebration.

Yea~ We are the typical hokkien lang. xD

I'm so happy to receive so much wishes from my fb friends, 

I will pass them to my mom. 

I wish her always healthy and happy with my daddy :)

Last month, my house kitchen had been renovated.

I think it became bigger and better than before.

At least the pathway had broaden. :)

Well, 

ignore about the stuffs on the racks and table, 

nicer right?

The steel cage had been lengthen,

Recently, I am watching 步步惊心.

Outdated again, haha..

Anyway, my main point is that I am so pity of the 8th prince.

the story background is alike with 宫琐玉心.

However I personally prefer the latter movie even everyone said that the primer is better.

I like happy ending, dislike cruelty.

I cry a lot watching these drama,

it makes me feel life is so twisted,

hungering for something,

that might be not real,

not far yet not near.

Love,

it makes me wonder that am I still wandering in my dream and imagination?

I don't love any man right now,

if I'm being loved again,

will I be the same as before?

I become coward in front of love.

I cannot believe someone can love me for eternally.

Now, 

I realise that I am afraid in front of guys.

Pretend to be indifferent, be calm and not to look into their eyes.

Even they show some simple action on my,

or speak of something to get near to me,

I could not react on that.

I am coward to reply their messages,

afraid of amusing them.

I am so tired,

I am so scared to be hurt again.

I can't believe and fall to the trap again.

Love,

I might be alone forever.

There will be no man can stay near to my soul,

never again.

So just be single,

=]

My roommates were worried for me,

they asked me whether to introduce some nice men to me.

I just burst in laughter.

Nice man? 

I met before, but he met a nice soul partner at the end.

Someone not like me.

I am a weird lady,

weird lady is hard to get someone who understand and be able to stay beside.

weird lady just stay alone and spend for own :)

happy though. =]

don't ask me to be loved again,

i'm not able to, even I said I want to.

Hmm..

Sound pessimistic?

Haha.. that's me, which come in pack.

Saw Mey <3 p="">

It happens

It was a surprising call.

I had never expect it would happen this way.

Just after an hour I posted my latest blog,

I received the result I had long waited.

I was accepted by faculty of Chemistry of USM.

The feeling was so great as I had been receiving gift from God.

Law of attraction, it happens!

Believe in what you think you will do.

everything will happen,

there is hope that can be created  by ourselves.

Never ever believe that God will arrange our future for us.

Never ever let your fate turn you out.

I learnt a lesson:

God only give hope and chance to those who work and wish for it.

we are the master of our fate.

that's why I learn it.

I will be enrolled to USM for the coming semester,

study as a first year student.

Nevermind,

I'm glad to my decision.

My mind is steel and my path is decided.

Just bless my luck will be continue to work on. :)

updating you

welcome to my blog,

even i know only a few will be follow up my blog,

i really appreciate that you care about my status.

My hair is this long and this is my room.

the yellow covered bed on my right side is my bed.

with pictures hanging on the steel :)

I was having diarrhoe since last night because i ate too much spicy food.

I hope that my waist can be smaller by that.. xD

later I will be having lab at 2pm.

I hate to walk so much and wait for the bus.

anyway, surviving is not a problem here.

I'm quite adapted to surrounding :D

Jia you!!

first of all,

i would like to talk about my friends in UMS.

this semester,

i am going well with my housemates and coursemates.

my housemate who lives next o my room is cai hoong,

which i will call rainbow :)

actually,

one of my housemate left at the beginning of this semester due to her ambition.

I sincerely wish her all the best in achieving her dream. 

i think we are so lucky to meet her here.

because of her presence,

we have the passion and start to work on cooking on our own.

her name is yeoh shu teng,

a girl who is half penangite too.

haha :)

recently,

i learnt to cook and start to love cooking.

it's fun,

but i still haven't learn the skill to choose ingredients.

what a malfunction chef. xD

a failed soup was cook yesterday,

this was because I don't know how to flavour the soup with canned corn. 

I felt it was a torture to finish the soup with the taste i was not familiar with.

Hmm..

I guess I can do better next time and no more canned corn.

I prefer fresh 'jagung'!!

xD

besides that,

I had joined my friend's birthday celebration at 1B last Sunday.

she was my coursemate and her name is Tan Siak Ying,

She is a cute, sweet and kind lady :)

outgoing sometimes.

playing lame jokes like I do.

I hope that she will be in health and happiness with us in Sabah :)

We went to sing K in K-box 1B.

The system was definitely not as good as Redbox.

9people were stuffed in 3people room,

suffering with 2 mics.

haha..

i sang until my lungs were going to shrink.

anyway,

I felt so great to sing.

I like to sing,

and i think my voice is elegant. (aisheh..personal assumption.. no offend.. xD) 

i want to go redbox, but i guess i will have not enough credit to do so.. sob sob.. TT

Next, this was about my application to USM faculty of Chemistry.

i asked my dad to complete my application through the formal way by passing through my dad's head officer before he retired.

I really hope that this will work out.

I don't want to end up taking the course I have no interest and even struggle everytime I wake up from my dream.

I might be late, but not too late.

I am waiting for call, a call from unknown number.

My brother couldn't contact the officer right now as he still did not pick up his phone.

I know God is giving me a challenge.

I know I won't give up until the devil cross by.

I will pay up my token for the gamble. 

I will win it, I feel it. I wish for it.

God bless Saw Mey.

Well, I bought a novel called 'Anna Dressed in Blood' last Sunday.

I never found any interest with the story about love or vampire.

However, this book draw my attention.

It began with the cover,

it showed some creepy yet some grief feeling.

'A story of a boy meets girl, girl kills people story..'

I managed to finished to finish four chapters yesterday and the girl hasn't come to the title.

It is so fishy. haha.

Anyway, it was my first bought novel,

i will treasure it as much as i could.

By the way,

i learnt the word 'hitchhiker'.

haha.. 

Lastly, I am so glad to know that my brother is going to buy a new car.

relying on his own. :)

I guess he is going well with his present work.

He got the skill of sociallising.

The talent that I want the most in my life.

by the way, let's have a briefly view on the car..

I think it is nice and cool :)

he is still kia lover. haha.. hope to sit on you soon :) 

wait until my long sem break bah~~ xD

Kia Forte with a big butt

I think its front looks quite alike with Honda city

I wonder what colour will my bro pick.

I hope not red again. haha.. 

anway, that's all for today :)

take care my friends.

I will be back in 3days more :DD

Saw Mey Letitia <3 p="">

hate life

I hate life to be like this.. fuck

why like that har

Seriously, I could not accept people keep changing boyfriend after a short period of break up. Sometimes, it makes me wonder whether he or she really gets to love their partner or just for filling loneliness. Perhaps, I'm the weirder person to them. How could my heart fall for others so quickly if I ever giving up the person I have loved before. For me, loyalty is the utmost important in relationship. I could not make myself look so clumsy. Keep on changing partners and receiving wishes from friends and family. What is that? Sucks!

However, the situation is viewed this way probably because I have never been chased by anyone. Perhaps, I have never get emotionally touched by a guy initiation. Well, I don't have that honour and appreciation. Maybe I just can't understand these situation for my whole life, however, I will get my guy. 

Lastly, I wish that my friends can stay happy and sweet with their current partners disguise of their past. I believe in love when the time both still love each other. Show me the faith of love, show me more, give me courage, for not being disbelief again.

It's tiring

I am so tired of cleaning up my stored disc under my television desk.

I wondered how much money was spent on those stuffs.

I guessed there were almost 300-400 pieces which I threw away.

I tried to calculate the cost,

let's make a number roughly, let it be 350.

Ok.

Let put a fix price for each disc, 

make a cheap assumption, about RM5/disc.

350 x RM5 = RM 1750.

That was already adequate for me to purchase a better and new laptop!

Gosh!

Anyway,

I still left with tonnes of dramas too.

At least not that hurt for my brother. Hahahaha..

Well,

I had a secret space, 

I just had to realise that no one discovered.

Erm,

actually,

I was hopig it was a bt breakable but whatever it was.

I'm still ok with that.

I want to get drunk.!

Let me get drunk!!! xD

It's complicated

It has been a long time I live in a simple and innocent life.

I have forgotten how the feeling of being complicated already.

Without sticking to my phone,

waiting for the same person,

or easily agitated by a guy.

Well,

I'm single,

forever alone.

At least,

I can be.

Once again,

guys prove to me that they don't deserve our appreciation.

The only guy that I can truly believe and rely on can only be my father.

Promises are trust to be betrayed.

Friends are more reliable. 

I might look exaggerate as I only have one experience of in relationship.

Unfortunately, 

I have seen a lot of insincerity of what a man could make.

I don't expect I could get a better guy since my ideal guy can't make it too.

So either be preferrable than suffer.

Enjoy single life before storm interferes my life :)

Good luck my dear~

My Transformation

Well,

I tried my best to figure out my transformation from 2012 to 2013.

First to mention about my hair length.

Certainly， 

it would be merely obvious transformation on me.

Almost everyone said that I looked much prettier with long hair.

Frankly, I agreed to that and I would keep it until my desires faded.

Besides that, 

I am even more polite now,

even if you have strong objection toward the above statement,

I stay to it. xD

I like my current self more,

physically and spiritually. 

Despite of what others have done to me,

I make myself stay still and enjoy well of  'ignorance is a bliss'.

I realise that,

 actually I can build up my relationship network easily,

I have my social skill,

even, it can be lame all the time,

I make it my way and brightness.

Single,

it didn't disappear in my 2012 life.

No incentive guy approached to me. 

Perhaps,

there could be uncles or weird guys,

intended to unlist them. Haha!!

I am still waiting for the ideal man.

Maybe Jae suk is my ideal man now.. Haha.. Just pretend to be.. xD

In addition,

I became less bothersome now.

I think that it was a big success, 

because I knew bothersome was my biggest enemy since n years ago.

So glad that I could get rid of it.

I alwasy wish I can be like this :)

My health degraded due to my weaken immunity in Sabah.

I think water sanitation was the biggest problem.

sneezing and coughing all the time.

I wonder how to overcome this problem.

Lastly, I am home, in Penang.

Luckily, 

most of the things still remain the same.

God bless :)

Happy to be home,

and I have to clean my house with salary.

Yeah!!

Sounds nice right ?

However,

it was only RM10 per day,

but I accepted the offer because I don't want to go back to work at other places.

Haha..

Kill two birds with one stone.

Great holiday :)

Happy Fisrt Sem Break xD

Saw Mey Letitia <3 p="p">