CANT LET GO HIM..

i noe i cant let go him..
i need him..
although juz can look at him once a day..
i feel satisfy...
i always hope tat he wouldn't b so busy evrytime..
i wan stay near him..
today..
choir got promote their bear bear in class..
carol called him to buy it 4 me..
actually i felt uncomfortable at tat time..
but i feel happy tat he din say anything tat he dun wan..
maybe he dun wan hurt me gua..
but i relly wish tat i can receive it..
he never giv me anything b4..
but i dun wan giv hope on myself..
to avoid bein disappointed badly..
i take a hairy hp acessory.. n keep touching it..
coz i feel tat it is soft.. i quite like it..
coz i wan a nice hp diao shi 4 so long adi..
n tis look not bad..
n suddenly he ask me tat' u like it hor?'
den i just said no..
n put it bac..
dunno y.. i cant say out tat time..
but watever la..
either he wan giv onot..
i still lov him la..
he is so special..
no one can replace him now..

today..
raining starts from early moring..
n he came sch a bit late..
n he get wet..
his shoes all wet, n he borrowed slippers from kok hong..
quite pity looking him like tat..
although och get wet too, but och wear pj tshirt..
not so cold..
lin aun said tat he adi sick b4 rain..
i wan chat wif him evrytime through sms when i'm sad..
or he got difficulty..
but his hp now no money liao..
i noe it..
so i had to go through tis few weeks by myself..
i yesterday sent him rm3 coz och told me tat he need 4 emergency..
i got hesitate on tat time..
but my mind kip calling me to help him..
i..feel myself lost.. i really really like him..
i wan him to get de better wan..i change a lot when facing him..
dunno wat will i do 4 him de nex moment..
he recently v weird too..
he always call my name 4 syok..
n tis action keep me hoping more from him..too bad..
i'm really falling 4 him adi..
duno gud thing or bad things will happen btw me n him..
but i like de situation we r now..
he noes my heart..
n he treat me better but not over..
sumtimes i feel relly sweet when he says sumthing tat abt me..
dunno wat he really thinks abt me inside his mind..
but i hope tat he'll noes tat he is important 4 me now..
i won let u go..but i'll keep u inside my heart 4ever..
i dunno my feel on u will last how long..
but sumthing sure is tat
U R DE ONE INSIDE ME NOW
*wish u always in happiness^^